Day 0 Starting again I was on a great streak but you know when you just fap and watch porn even when you tell yourself this is a bad idea I did that today. I've got to keep myself busy and bring back the night meditation.
day 24 ARGH. I. AM. SO. ANGRY. RIGHT. NOW. i was in my train on my way home, and i really wondered what it could be like to touch myself in the train... i did NOT do it. later on my way home i was angry at my sexual tension that could not be released at the next girl i found attractive. i need to be civilised. my nofap goal is to be able to normally speak to girls, as if they are normal human beings, not "a potential spouse" EVERY. SINGLE. TIME. this is so anoying. i did not know what i was signing up for. but after a few conversation with some people on this forum, i realised that is going to be no picnic. i woke up at 5AM, did 3x10 pushups, i can continue my workout this afternoon so after this message. i must keep on learning everyday, i see what i aim at, and i aim at being a better person for the people in my community. the Force is with me.
Just came back from my chess tourney. I achieved 13 place of 237 players and got a prize money. I reached this by using the nofap Power. Day 51. I really wanna fap as a reward , what do you think?