90 days in. No porn, no masturbation. Feels unbelievable! As I look back on the past 90 days, and what has happened, I feel humbled and blessed. So many years of addiction had really beaten me down to a shell of a human being, but I have gained a glimpse of what it looks like to lead a "normal" life without the guilt, shame, secrecy and lies that PMO requires of us. This has brought hope. What has worked for me? I found a "why" that has literally overpowered my urges. Powerful enough that I have made this 90-day streak without blockers, SAA meetings or therapy. There have also been a few folks here speaking truth into my life and setting a great example which has been a huge help. Not to say it hasn't been difficult, because this is easily the hardest thing I've ever attempted in my life. It has been a mental and physical battle, but by far, dealing with the mental and emotional challenges has been the most difficult. As with so many others, porn was an escape from past and present hurts, insecurities and anxieties. Facing them head on has been traumatic, but healing. I know I am still at the beginning of this. Every day brings new temptations and challenges, but there can be victory. Be calm and NoFap on!
Would you mind sharing with us your “why” that was so helpful for you? If it’s something that is personal and you’d like to keep to yourself, that’s fine too.
Thanks! Great job on hitting 90 so many times. My previous best was 23 days, and it was a shaky 23 at best.
I nearly got caught acting out by my teenage daughter. It was a real eye-opener, and caused me to consider how much I really had to lose.