Forgot that the porn I was casting to the TV screen was somehow left on the memory on my tablet which was still communicating with the TV. We were sitting there as a family and I was trying to cast something decent for everyone to watch, and my porn automatically restarted from where I left off. Imagine the embarrassment as I tried to switch of fthe TV and do some control to the damage. All that took about 5 minutes and the whole family was looking at me waiting. No one spoke a word and no comments were made. Feeling really shit and fucked up. Don't know if anyone will broach the subject with me in the upcoming days. Very embarrassed and low at the moment. I really hate this shit !
BB: I'm really sorry for your situation. The only thing I can think to say is that being here, and working on putting porn behind you, is the best, next step to take. Let me know if I can do anything to help.
Thanks for your support, man. I guess right now it's more the shame and embarrassment that is killing me. Just went out for a walk and tried to clear my head a bit and still hoping that no one talks to me about it. I guess they are probably all laughing behind my back for the embarrassment and awkwardness. I approached I intend just to laugh about it and not take myself too seriously.
Laughing about it and not taking yourself too seriously is the right attitude BBX. However much we're all trying to walk away from porn here, it's important to keep in perspective that sexuality is a part of everyone's experience, of being a human being. You might get more out of clearing the air than keeping a lid on it, if you can be honestly apologetic, and muster a sense of humor from everyone that was present when the mishap occurred.
Man, thats tough ! Id be humiliated but I think the humor approach might be a good route to go, if the whole family saw it, they're not going to be forgetting about it. I know my daughter would have let me have it over that. Good luck its bound to be difficult. BCO
I would be so embarrassed - but like another person said - it is kind of funny when you think about it. I'm not sure what to say except - you're in the right place for sure for getting through that type of thing and maybe never having to go through anything like that possibly ever again - and if that happens? You'll really be able to look back and laugh about it in the future.
I can relate to how you felt, BBX. On several occasions, my wife has opened the browser on my phone and the porn I had been looking at previously popped up. She couldn't help but be startled because she wasn't expecting it. She would say something, probably quite innocuous, but my insecurities would invariably take over and I would tell myself, " you are such an idiot, a horrible person, and a sorry husband. You don't deserve anything you have; you always mess it up." This would usually be followed by me yelling at her that she shouldn't have looked at it (this is after I let her borrow my phone to use the web), and demanding that she give my phone back now. I understand what you mean about the embarrassment. I think not taking yourself too seriously is a great way to handle it. Hopefully you can handle your situation better than I usually handle mine. Good luck and hang in there!
Am with you man, more determined now than ever to do whatever it takes to rid myself of this addiction. It is destroying my progress in life.
Wow ! How do you give yourself a bj ? Glad your dad didn't say a thing. I mean what could he say? In my case I was nearly caught with my pants down while fapping to porn but managed to get up quickly, switch off the screen and pulled my pants up. I escaped by about 3 seconds. . Regarding the other day, there were some giggles and laughs behind me. But it was done quietly. I have just decided to laugh at myself and not take myself too seriously. Shit happens! I just need to move on in trying to stop the addiction. If someone approaches me to talk about it I will just to apologise and at least admit that I have a problem. Not always easy to talk about sex challenges with family, especially things of this nature.
shit man got caught with my pants down! can happen so easy! I always use to look out the window to see if my parent were coming home when I was addicted to porn years ago. OMG
Never been caught and have never even been close to it. In my past days of PMO, I felt like a ninja. I knew who was home, how far they were from my room, what they were doing and I monitored every single little sound outside of my own room. It was like I was in fucking mission impossible. I was unstoppable. I knew that if I ever got caught, it would literally feel like the end of my life. It was just not gonna happen.
I also remember when I was 13 and Id just learnt how to masturbate and had a massive urge probably the chaser effect and my friend caught me having a quicky. It was so embaressing but he just said continue on! He had an older brother so he knew the score!