try to take a cold shower bro, cold water helps tremendously to wake up from any kind of lethargy and gives a boost in energy and confidence
Day 16! I guess enough time has passed for the memory of the past to not hold any sexual pull on me. I can say for certain that I'm becoming either more attractive or more confident... Or both. There is no sex involved, so I guess this won't be a trigger. The past weekend I met a girl on the street and half hour later I was in her apartment drinking some wine. She then told me she had a boyfriend which totally shiftem my mood and got me into contemplation mode, as this was the first time someone admitted this from the get-go. Which brings me to my dilemma from a couple of days back on what to do in these situations. I guess, due to various factors(NoFap included), I wasn't feeling that desperate to try and get her, as I started understanding lately, that there are enough women for me to not be required to accept weird and unproductive situations or entanglements. Knowing that, I told her to not do anything, to spare the drama and for me to understand what's happening, because I'm fairly confident that she will eventually cheat on the dude once she will see that moments like those will keep repeating. Next time, I don't think I will be this "honorable" though, though I would prefer if they were single.
Checking in Fellowship Another terrible night for me, i did all my strategies to sleep well, but still bad sleep is here. i guess it´s really withdrawal insomnia, so i guess i have to be patience you know, i instituted a habit of taking a walk around the block in the middle of the morning. just walking, no phone, to get some fresh air, see the views, the shops and say hello to people. i find it´s a good way to feel good and face my fear of people due to pmo social anxiety. i feel fresh and happy everytime i return to the office I wish everybody a great day. Stay strong my brothers and sisters!!
Nice poem especially I like the last three parts: Once, anger burned in the depths. I called anger into the light of myself. I felt its shocking power. I let my heart pound and my blood boil. Listened to it, finally. And it screamed, "Respect yourself fiercely now!". "Speak your truth with passion!". "Say no when you mean no!". "Walk your path with courage!". "Let no one speak for you!" Anger became an honest friend. A truthful guide. A beautiful wild child. Once, loneliness cut deep. I tried to distract and numb myself. Ran to people and places and things. Even pretended I was "happy". But soon I could not run anymore. And I tumbled into the heart of loneliness. And I died and was reborn into an exquisite solitude and stillness. That connected me to all things. So I was not lonely, but alone with All Life. My heart One with all other hearts. Once, I ran from difficult feelings. Now, they are my advisors, confidants, friends, and they all have a home in me, and they all belong and have dignity. I am sensitive, soft, fragile, my arms wrapped around all my inner children. And in my sensitivity, power. In my fragility, an unshakeable Presence. In the depths of my wounds, in what I had named “darkness”, I found a blazing Light that guides me now in battle. I became a warrior when I turned towards myself. And started listening."
Lets do this ! Done it once today : -Breathing(was a hard one practiced it for 12 minutes) -Remember the truth -Accountability text -Escape(went shopping groceries ) Have you done your BRACE practice today? How was it going?
Any place where I can read mode about BRACE. The initial DDG search didn't come up with anything useful Day 6. Felt a little tired today even though I slep enough. Was able to focus at work and be pretty productive. A good day overall. Little concerned about wet dreams (since I didn't O in 6 days and I used to O daily) and the Chaser Effect. Feels like that's my next challenge and I hope I'll raise to the occasion.
Day 16 Accomplished so far: 8 hours of sleep, some work, prayer, meditation, healthy meal. Still on the agenda: workout, cold shower, walk (?), more reading. I really am starting to come back to myself, thank God, but it's taking some time. I must persevere and be patient. This is the danger zone for me. Or "a" danger zone. Not having any bad cravings yet, but started to get some minor porn flashbacks today. My response is to banish the thought in Christ's name with a quick prayer, then go back to whatever I was doing. I'm going to need the power of God to defeat this addiction. I know it's trite, but it really is one day at a time. I am thankful today for God's mercy, and for the interesting people all around me.