Day 124 no PMO. Got some good news at work yesterday. Had a productive afternoon. My wife told me the kids would be spending the night with Nana on Sunday so we get to go on a date! Thinks are looking better.
You've done a good progress, just don't go binging and try to go to bed before 10 pm. Obviously you are quite serious about your health and about quitting PMO for the better results you've got to get quite 'addicted' to this site and to studying rebooting, because your presence here as well as your time spend studying rebooting are directly proportionate to the length of your clean streaks, so instead of reading about pokemons and similar subjects concentrate on living around here as well as implementing healthy habits in your lifestyle( the more the better). Do this for 2 months to beat your current streak record and take a picture of yourself now to compare it with how you going to be looking 60 days down the timeline !
So what is it that gets you? Stress of loneliness or stress of boredom? For the first get to the company, to the people, call your friends, relatives and talk to them, volunteer for the weekend and as for the boredom learn to entertain yourself in a healthy ways gym, walk , puzzles, crosswords, reading. Plan your weekend in advance to get carried through your sticky points on the strength of your plan.
Checking in Fellowship friends! 156 days free of MO and 228 free of Porn. Throughout the journey you MUST, gradually introduce new habits. You must learn to feel and let go of your emotions, no matter how intense. You will experience withdrawal and that is okay, it's the price you must pay for your habit. You don't have to also dwell on those symptoms that you may or may not feel, you'll feel them either way. If you spend your days thinking about it, you'll just double drain yourself and strengthen a limbic system trauma loop. By practicing meditation along your journey and exercising you are teaching yourself to be at peace with whatever discomfort you may come across. You also create a healthy medium for dealing with stress. Flatline/paws is a difficult part of the process, but no matter the brain fog, the intense stress/anxiety/depression, you must accept it and carry on with what you set out to do today(of course you need to make manageable and incremental goals that make sense). Don't wait to live your life after you've recovered, live it now, to the best of your ability and there will be a day where you're through this pit of hell. On that day, all your hard work and healthy practices will propel you ever forward in whatever you choose to pursue, with advantage.
Alright! Day 12 and I'm feeling it! Last night I had the opportunity to encounter a dilemma, Which is pretty great and terrible at the same time as I will probably torture myself trying to find an answer to it but I know that the answer still lies somewhere in me or God, as I can think of no person qualified enough to offer me an unbiased answer. Damn reality, you be interesting af.
Day 28 trod on! 28 days – The PMO forces were at your tail but you crossed the Ford of Bruinen, leaving them behind. The House of Elrond is in sight!
Thank you @Slider8 you have given me a lot of motivation these last few weeks. While I will continue to read about Pokemon during the day in free time, I will not do that after 7pm at night. In fact, I intend to only spend time after 7pm reading about math (from a textbook) and I have a couple books I picked up that I have been meaning to read. I also need to finish The Stand by Stephen King, and I have plenty of time to do that after 7pm. That does mean absolutely no internet at that time. No screen time, so no phone, no checking email, no video games, just decompression time and bed by 9/10PM. After I log off, I am going to journal for a bit to trace back from the relapse through the series of events that led to it. I will also meditate, and take a cold shower, and then this afternoon will be a period of schedule building for the summer. It is half past noon here in Wisconsin, USA, I moped about all morning, but now I am feeling motivated, I am eating salt-free homemade trail mix packed full of energy and nutrients for the day. I am thinking of going on a semi-fast these next few days, eating 1 meal and a snack a day to reset my body and mind. I am feeling surprisingly motivated despite waking up feeling shitty. Thank you, Best, Mathman1994
Day 0 again. Youtube. Put a blocker on youtube, but using an RSS feed to still follow a few good subscriptions I like. I like it a lot! The RSS feed that is. Totally recommend it if you want to manage your intake of social media or just sites that you can get tempted from but don't want to quit entirely.
Day 0 I've been a member of this community more than maybe 4 years. I always tried not to watch P and masturbate at the same time. I wasn't very successfull at it. So, I'm going to try a new thing. I know that it's not the best way to kill this bad habit but I'm gonna give it a shot. From now on, I'm concentrating on not watching p. If I can stop watching it for 90 days, I will try to stop masturbate. Of course it doesn't mean that I'm gonna masturbate every chance i get. I'm doing it because every time I relapse, I do it with P. I will try to solve the problem one step at a time. Have a good day y'all!
Checking in Fellowship Sorry, i slipped again, got mildy drunk at a party and yesterday the hangover and pmo withdrawal sympthoms were so bad that i couldn´t help myself. anyway i know what i did wrong and how i can improve from there. and i have made that log on my journal. from now on i will be extra diligent around alcohol, and take note of it . I hope you brave warriors are going well. 1 day done here. Let´s do this!!!!
Going on Day 12 Just a lazy weekend check in. Doing all right today and feeling decent. I hope to see some friends tonight. I've been trying to read today but have been having difficulty focusing. Honestly, I think my internet use has really messed up my attention span. I need to work on this. I've been trying to do less internet and more book reading for recreation, but it's still hard. I'll keep on it. Accomplished today: cold shower, prayer, meditation, some walking, ca. 8 hours sleep last night. Nutrition: eh, tacos. Not the healthiest, but very delicious. I've been mostly good with nutrition this week, though. Today I am thankful that I've been porn-free for the last several days.