Thanks again for being so accountable @RiseToGreatness , it is v helpful to me personally and I am sure to others on this forum also. I will go back to my previous question - could you just start with going without P for a time, then M, and then when all that is under control go for O? It just seems that you are putting yourself under huge pressure which is leading to the P relapses after you have a natural encounters with your wife (which are to be cherished rather than punished no?)
It can be a fun place, in real life nobody cares about semen retention or sexual energy. There are interesting people here I learn from others and I think maybe somebody can learn from me.
Well then I guess you have already achieved the 500 days, and then some, no? Your post above on the semen retention is really helpful, thanks for this Could you do a similar one on urges for those of us who are in the pits of hell, please? Bear in mind the process you describe is from human beings in the human realm striving to connect to the divine. However, as we are caught in the web of P addiction our minds are actually in the lower realms, and therefore what we need is to regain our humanity first.
Yes, I think that is one of the most difficult points and flatline. I'll make a thread about it. I'm going to think about what to write. I'll let you know. Thanks for the advice. I'll make another one about flatline. Sometimes it's just about endure the urge and go through hell holding in there. The bigger the urge you conquer the stronger you get. It comes a point you have no urges anymore. I don't have urges in a very long time.
Wow first time I've written so much on the challenge. Let's see if I can achieve 500 days and be a white wizard. I'm 100 days left. I'm going to be very focus. I'm going to redeem you @Johnthesavage This 100 days left are in your honor my friend
Congrats on 400 days! I send good thoughts with the hope that you will keep the focus for 100 more days.
Day 7 - One week clean from all forms of acting out. I have had only two or three times since Sunday where the thought of masturbating or fishing/peeking popped into my head, and when I was on the internet, I immediately stepped away so that I would not have the temptation to actually act. In two days I will be two weeks free from porn and in three days I will be 10 days free from MO. This time a week from tomorrow I will be a Hobbit. Obviously, I should not count my eggs before they hatch, so I am not going to think too much on that yet, however, I feel like I can reach it right now. It seems manageable, and I might have to try writing an angry letter to God every time I have urges, not necessarily with any accusations, but to free myself from my pain on paper because for me, PMO and MO are me acting out of pain not pleasure. I don't find porn or masturbation pleasurable per se, I find them as painkillers for emotional killer, and unlike my anti-psychotics and anti-depressants, their medicine requires repeat hits to have even a temporary effect and the side effects are even worse than their medicating abilities. Best, Mathman1994
Day 4 Super hot today where I am. Had a midday urge that I battled off when I was tired and too lazy to get the things done that I need to get done. I need to be weary in those moments and really focus on getting off of my phone at those times. Made it through though. Lets keep it going
Day 5. A little bit sad but i thing its part of the process those changes of humor. Anyway doing my best i hope tomorrow may i feel better
I was looking the movie ghost in shell live-action because has good grafics,has an interesting story as could see in the trailer, so i give it a chance , but the problem was the female protagonist has a disguise color pink " a insinuation", anyways i don't give a damn about it and i continue watching the story but then appears constanly with it and doesn't give me a choice, i left without ended the movie. In this case should i reset?
Day 0 I got captured by some orcs. Luckily, they're convinced that I'm one of them...for now. Keep going forward guys! I'll be back in no time! - Just need to make sure to not get chased around by orcs. (NOTE: It's really exciting for me that I've made it this far. I was exhausted and have lost focus. Nevertheless, it was a choice in the end. This sums it up pretty good: "In any moment of decision, the best thing you can do is the right thing, the next best thing is the wrong thing, and the worst thing you can do is nothing." ~ Theodore Roosevelt)
Day 0. Relapsed two days in a row, but I wouldn't say this was the chaser effect: just me being on autopilot. I thought I was doing well: spent an hour in prayer this afternoon and then took a very peaceful, relaxing walk for another hour, but after dinner my guard wasn't up and I gave in to PMO. Tomorrow I will do better, and every day after that.
4 days. Running + push-ups + sit-ups. The orc life is great but need to sleep more in order to keep the energy and willpower required to become an uruk-hai.