Well done brother ! These are indeed the main workouts in destroying of addiction. ...and we are not addicts but children of God fallen into a pit of lust and covered with its filthy dirt, trying our best to get out of it, wash ourselves and become free again...and we have not given up so don't make temporary permanent by calling us derogate names.
Hey brother hope you are alright. Hey brother sorry about your relapse and the state of your mind at the moment , but remember you are child of God with the spark of divine consciousness in you, capable of absolutely everything so cheer up ! The things that I found most beneficial that carried me out of my relapses were prayer, meditation, running and this community with its posts and accountability. You can avoid abominable activities by fixing you consciousness on God and divine and the choice on what to lay your mind attention is yours no matter what ! So arise brother crazyhorse11 and put your effort in -'Thy Kingdom come on earth as it is in heaven',believe the things you haven't seen yet and make your faith alive. Your brother in One God @Slider8
Made it through my first day, so I guess Day 1 is my current count! I took the physical exercise responsibility - running, push-ups and sit-ups - to become stronger and eventually evolve into a Uruk-Hai.
Day 100 no PMO. Feeling good about this milestone but need to stay focused. I have come this far before and fallen.
I just live in the present, I try to enjoy as much as I can, make enough money so I could retire early, then I will build a family, and enjoy for the rest of my life. The fact I don’t believe in god, does not mean I don’t believe in anything, I believe in the universe, there is a stronger power that control everything, maybe for you it’s god, but I call it the universe, maybe you have specific words that you pray to your god when you want something. But I will just believe in it with all my heart, ask for it, Do good things For other people, and that’s how I receive it.
Relapse. Day 0. I'll be back with a more detailed post tonight but I wanted to make that confession while I have the chance right now.
Going on 10 days no P and 5 days no MO. I realized I said I would take a step back from the forums two days ago, and I do not think I will be on everyday, but I do think that posting here every few days is nice as well as reading everyone's posts. They can be really motivating. I have had no urges in nearly three days, it turns out my urges and MO sessions were tied to anxiety and when I dealt with the anxiety, the urges went away. Now I have seen some triggering material on line, but they did not elicit too much of a response and I did not go down the rabbit hole of fishing/peeking. Can't help seeing triggering material as it is all over, but you can choose to leave it when you see it. Best, Mathman1994
Checking in Fellowship Feeling good and peaceful which is quite strange in the first days after a relapse so i guess further benefits of that 50 day semen retention streak are still with me I also slept well tonight so it seems all my insomnia from previous months and years were more connected to coffee than to an actual pmo withdrawal, imagine that Have a great day brave Fellowship!!! Let´s keep going, one day at a time. Here´s a great poem that i read today that brought tears to my eyes. “If you're going to try, go all the way. Otherwise, don't even start. This could mean losing girlfriends, wives, relatives and maybe even your mind. It could mean not eating for three or four days. It could mean freezing on a park bench. It could mean jail. It could mean derision. It could mean mockery - isolation. Isolation is the gift. All the others are a test of your endurance, of how much you really want to do it. And, you'll do it, despite rejection and the worst odds. And it will be better than anything else you can imagine. If you're going to try, go all the way. There is no other feeling like that. You will be alone with the gods, and the nights will flame with fire. You will ride life straight to perfect laughter. It's the only good fight there is.” Charles Bukowski
Day 25 Looks like I'm going to spend the night in the old tower Make sure to check the map from time to time. Otherwise you might get lost, like I did