Relapsed 5 times the past two days and I had ZERO feeling or sensation when I ejaculated. It was actually pretty weird. It just came out and didn't feel good at all. It felt like NOTHING! What's the cause of this? I feel as if I ruined my penis for good this time.
I would guess that excessive masturbation will lead to short term desensitization; don't that it is permanent though I would advise to go through a reboot and see how it looks afterwards,
Yeah I guess, I binged hard on my last relapse and didn't feel much during that session apart from knowing that I'm basically frying my brain and succumbing to primal emotions like a caveman, yet I still went on. I don't want to be in that place again we're I'm knowingly sabotaging myself.
IKR!! You described my situation perfectly! We know were destroying our bodies, brains and souls and yet we continue to use PMO.. How does that make any sense.
In that moment we choose temporary pleasure over long time satisfaction and let our addicted part take over our action. That's how it is for me anyway.
I too binge some times and end up busting like 5+ times. I dont think you fucked your dick up for good. I have binged like that a lot of times and my dick still works. The quality of the erections are unfortunaly worse but they do get better after 30+ days. It might have to do something with the reward system as you mentioned. Too much stimulus. A reebot should fix the problem.
I've had this for 2.5 years now and the only time it went away was after two months hard mode. I've come to the conclusion that it's physical desensitisation rather than mental, though I'm sure that plays some part as well. The reason I say this is that I still get hard(most of the time anyway) when looking at something arousing so the arousal connection still works but I just don't feel anything in a physical sense, maybe 5% of what I used to. Hard mode will fix it but how long it takes will vary by person.
I wonder if my problem is similar? My dick shriveled up after weeks and days of masturbating to porn.