What do you do in June? Don’t mind me; guess I get off on being a smart ass. An admirable trait that will win you friends at a number of somewhere around zero. Maybe worth thinking about, though. I also go the opposite route of One Day at a Time, a brilliant strategy, some might think, for throwing any kind of actual game plan or commitment out the window. But for me the deal rides on getting through the moment, the point where you are in control. And those moments can go on forever if you choose. But you have to win in that moment of the present, when you have the power. My congrats to all those on here making the commitment for this month, though. At least we’re all here, right? No time like the present.
I failed this night. It was my longest streak so far, with 28 full clean days. I wish everyone who is still in all the strength to rock the last 1/3 of may.
Relapse is part of the deal. Don't give up. If you have problems, that you connect to porn giving it up is not supposed to be easy. So this is not a start from 0. You managed 28 days. You can be proud of that.
I also failed this week, felt terrible especially because i initiated this thread. But 28 days clean sounds damn solid, you definitely weakenend some porn-related pathways in the brain. Let's try to be clean in the remaining of May, and try for a full month again in June
Im going quite strong, Im on day 10 and it went relatively effortly for what I am used too. However, today, I peaked at porn... Some girl i know from high school apparently has an onlyfans (my friends informed me on that) so i kinda peaked to see if that was true, and ofcourse i ended up looking at porn for like 10 min... I dont really feel bad, because I managed to put my phone down and say no to myself, and be in charge of my own wanting and behavior. I mean I would not have been able to do this a couple of months ago. My mind is still pretty clear and immediatly got back to writing after the peak. Still im wondering... these 10 min of intentionally looking at porn, would you consider this a relapse? I personally feel like its not because i managed to back down and feel like i practised behavioral inhibition with regards to ending upmastrubating on porn. Or am I fooling myself if i say i didnt relapse would like to hear your thoughts!