I have been masturbating since I was 15 (I am 22 now). Couple of years back I discovered sites where you can anonymously enter and start jerking off with strangers. I got addicted to that. I started spending a lot of time just on those websites along with gay porn. I strongly believe this is HOCD. Last year I came across these forums and decided to give it a try. My first streak was 14 days. Then I relapsed. Next streaks were of just a week or so. I took me about 5 months to set my eyes on my goal.. 90 days NoFap. I am currently on day 17 of no PMO and I have been extremely careful. I am paying absolutely no attention to my urges (experiencing a mild testicular discomfort though.. may be that's just blue balls). But my old addiction is making my urges stronger. Tbh I just visited one of those sites again but did not do cam jerk.. but I still feel pretty ashamed of myself. I feel that sooner or later I'll just start cam jerking again.. Is it just me or has anyone of you experienced the same? If yes, what are you doing to fight this addiction?
I've done this before too. Usually when I'm really wanting something that givens me a rush. Very addictive to me. I was tempted with it today.
That's great.. I've started meditating. Will consider spending more time outside once this lockdown gets over in my country.
ikr! My urges are strong since Day 15. What are you doing to fight this? I desperately need more ways to come out of this addiction..
I hear you. I found myself asking men to cum on my face. I mean wtf was going on? Of course it was my addicted brain. I've never been attracted to men. As you stay off it the urges go away
It may help you an app that blocks app/websites? Mine, for example, doesn't allow you to change the settings (remove the blocked websites/app) for a period of time that you pre-set. During this period of block, you're only allowed to add sites or App you want to block - again, not to remove them. For example, last time I did it for 30 days.. it was really helpful, since sometimes I compley forgot I had the block app, and even only getting to websites like Tumblr for other reasons, the app would have blocked me. Man.. shame is something so dreadful! JESUS is the only whou could wash away my shame and baptizing me with fire, he completely burnt all my sins! My prayer is that you can open your heart to Him and find His power!
Yeah! Looking back, I feel like "I did that?? That's so not me!" Great to know this! I am trying my best. Thanks a lot!
Hello, I´m 26, I feel kind of happy to find someone who´s living the same as me (because it´s still a sad thing). I just started to do that webcam s*t about two weeks ago and I feel bad. I´ve doing plenty of things: praying, exercising, talking about it with people who can help me.... I´ve struggled with gay porn too, I thought I was over it but with these webcam thing, I´ve been looking for them again. You are right, those sites suck your time and your energy and hurts your self love
Same here, man. Staying away from devices, and filling free time, and staying in the company of others helps to keep those opportunities away.
My suggestion is that you need to address the underlying reason why you're going to this kind of porn or cam jerk. It is filling a void of something in your life that you are avoiding, fleeing from, haven't resolved, etc. To overcome this by yourself by just white-knuckling it in here is not likely to be successful. You need to talk to another live human being, whether that be a therapist, NoFap weekly support group, SAA or similar group, etc., will help you address what you are going through with people struggling with similar things and help you dive deep as to the "why" behind your issue. Kudos for coming here and reaching out for help and trying to address this issue while you are young. You don't want to live with regrets on the amount of time you've wasted jerking off to pixels. PMO is done in isolation and secrecy and can only be overcome in honesty and connection with others. Another good resource I like for podcasts is Porn Free Radio (www.recoveredman.com). Best wishes in your struggle to defeat this and heal.
Hey man I'm also struggling with this for years... I've started when I was younger than you but discovered nofap about an year ago... I've also decided to go to a psychologist to help me overcome this addiction. If you feel you're out of controlling the addiction, you may consider it. Anyway, it takes time, its a journey. Good luck brother! We'll beat this for good!
Same here!! I am 45 and I started masturbating with fellows when I was a teenager and now I am still addicted to webcaming... Any other people with my same problems? I tend to edge as well for many hours