Day 2/90. Had a bad day, just one of those annoying workdays where everyone interrupts you every two or three minutes and you can't get anything done. Got snippy with two or three people. I got through it though, and I treated myself to a little bit of candy. I'll be busy working a part-time gig all night so that makes today another day of sobriety.
Day 66/90. Had a good day yesterday. Called a couple recovery buddies because I was feeling disconnected. Not necessarily wanting to relapse but just browsing the internet for deals, places to eat, etc. Watched a movie last night with friends that had a couple scenes that weren't bad but just objectifying the girl's chest for instance which I don't know but I almost had a wet dream this morning I don't know that they're necessarily connected but that's where I'm at. But I was waking up, and I decided to stop it. One of those places where I could decide and sometimes I just let it happen and sometimes I fight it off. Today I decided to fight it off. I don't know if that's good for my brain or if it wouldn't matter. But that's where I'm at today.
I will try to reach 6 months from this point and after that I will stop counting days. I wanna make NoFap as a part of my personality. It will be just something I don't do anymore. If I keep counting days, I feel like it's always gonna be in my head. I might have a date on the weekend so yeah I will go out for the real thing from now on. Other than that, I will be working on my goals, purposes, making money and stuff. You know this energy should go somewhere