I have a urine control issue for like 4 years.. currently i'm on treatment.. last few days was like a nightmare with side effects of medicine.. couldn't sleep or eat proper food... when there was nothing to do but rest , i saw the demons lurking around...seemed like devil dont want to spare me on illness... i don't want to give up..
Day 0 of 90 no PMO I relapse. I thought I needed sex for the stress I was going through 2 days ago. I tried texting here but no one could talk me out of it.
Checking in. I've been off the forum for a few days. Still clean, still watching my strategies and staying away from the things which tempt me. Focussing on the future. (See my posts here https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?t...deathmatch-closed.296791/page-13#post-2838697 and in my journal). Welcome to the challenge @Andrew37 , @Twizza & @I will break free I read your Cold Showers Escalation. The tradition you mentioned - is that usually done naked, or was this your choice? Yeeehawwww! Sounds awesome! Enjoy those boots and flame-thrower too mate! Oh man that sounds tough. Is the treatment helping? I had urinary retention from some anti-depressants not long ago, and it felt horrible. It has happened with three different meds, so I had a test when I still couldn't go which was super stressful, then saw a urologist. I know it doesn't just affect things when in the bathroom, but other times too, worrying about it. I hope you're getting whatever help you need man. It's great reading your progress, struggles, good days and bad days @Jo_Fabstronaut. I'm convinced that writing this stuff down helps, even if nobody said anything, it would still help. Added bonus that people often do respond though ;-) Keep us posted how you're doing. Welcome back to the chastity train. Sorry you didn't get the help you needed at the time. Do you have a journal btw? We understand. Welcome back. Oh remember to update your counter btw. Nice new avatar btw (little creepy haha). Same Q - do you have a journal?
The treatment is bit of improvement.. I've consulted my urologist regarding the side effects.. he helped me with some meds to help me sleep.. skipped gym for 3 days as i was unwell.. have to bring things back on track.. writing down here really helps... urges are like "dude you've got a penis, don't forget"... its tough as i struggle to work on a clean daily routine... anyway i stick on to the new strategy, fixing smaller check points and motivations... I need to be free and more productive... I also used to have antidepressants for about 5 years.. they helped temporarily without a proper solution... now abstaining from pmo i feel like i got a solution.. a clear head helps to see problems the way they are and fix them up.. feeling a lot better....
try to adapt to a strategy mate... 90 days might be a long path.. but a week or a mini 5 day or 10 day challenge is not... small efforts aid you to cover the longer distance...set a timer on your phone and reset it to zero after each shorter distance so that you have a feeling of starting fresh... then you wont think like "oh i have survived this much distance.. now it is okay to relapse" ..importantly remind yourself of the good things that could happen to you if you manage to survive... you may write them down on a piece of paper and stick to your bedroom wall where it is visible when you wake up... keep telling yourself life is not about Porn or masturbation... about porn i ll tell you to see that it is not real.. they are just actors faking for money... you may develop a sense of contempt on watching porn... once again.. keep telling yourself "life is not about porn... you can have more life without these demons"..
Checking in, day 30+/50+ not counting, looking for day 40 Are you guys really commited: Don the REAL helmet: https://www.myminifactory.com/object/3d-print-mandalorian-helmet-v2-106137 It is usually done in swimsuit, yes.
will update it maybe on sunday, cant acces my laptop and my browser kinda hard to update a counter Day 3 btw
Day 4 Low energy low focus and pannick attack Theese past 3 days, is by far the most negative after relapse impact in my whole nofap journey
had a wet dream.. damn it... I was having afternoon nap... after 3 days break i went to the gym... it was really an effort giving my health leaping down for the side effects of my urology medicines and a low blood pressure which hit me 2 weeks ago... I was really tired and resting.. felt really bad on this... This is the second time on ten days... I don't want to give up.. I wont... This is the way. No porn, Masturbation edging/orgasm
Day 36 checking in/ personal 56 I had a wet dream an hour ago too. I was having afternoon nap I have had a few sexual dreams but chose not to come in them, they were not healthy. After that, I gave my subconscious what is acceptable and what not. Truth be told yesterday I had a few seconds of P exposure, I was researching something on Discord. I had urges when falling asleep, but I moved thesexual energy around my body and resisted them. Totally fine night sleep. This one in the nap dream creeped in slowly, I had the time to choose and I agreed, took the lead and the leap. No big deal. The noPap FAQ says wet dreams are natural, and no problem. Just we must be aware of the chaser effect two days in. Peace everyone, and you @Jo_Fabstronaut
Checking in I totally get the "dude you've got a penis, don't forget" kind of urge. Many times. It doesn't happen nearly as often now thankfully. I guess I finally realised that I'm not going to forget just because I stopped PMO! Glad to hear you're feeling a lot better It does sound like you're going through a lot, e.g. your last post. Your commitment to not giving up, not giving in even when you're feeling physically rubbish is inspirational. I hope your health improves man. I've just prayed for your health overall, and your fight against this PMO beast. Oh that Mando helmet...This is the way!
Checking in. I'm currently spending 3 nights in an Airbnb out in the country. So far I have spent way too much time on the computer. Researching interesting stuff, but still, I need to get out more, "switch off" more. At least tonight I had Christmas dinner with the hosts and some of their friends, which was great. Thinking of you bro. This is the way