guys i indulged in straight fantasies and now i feel a little weird my HOCD seems to disappear and i'm a few sad i fear it's a relapse
It's not a relapse. But, you lost some gains in fantasizing impure thoughts. Whatever you think of, there is a concomitant physical effect in the body, no matter how subtle it is. Since you harbored impurity in the mind, the concentrated vital force (produced from long-term conservation of semen) nourishing your internal organs, thinned out, and separated from the blood. That is the reason you perceived a drop in mood and energy. Keep your thoughts clean and pure. You will make great strides in the long run, compared to an average nofapper.