Problem is, when the urges get to you, you lose the ability to reason and you forget what you told yourself. I just re-watched the famous "No Nut November" video by Paul Joseph Watson and it's just 10 minutes of one one truth after another. The whole "Coomer" meme is gold, and helps you to elaborate why we're doing what we're doing. So, I'm back in this!
Checking in on day 249/365, for another week completed. My best for you, that you stay strong. It's not been easy because relaxing is always an option and one can never relax with this addiction. I was having some urges in the past few days, you know, because the memories of this addiction are still there, and still clear. I know that they will come once in a while, but I should continue focusing on the reboot process because this cannot be just a fight between my mind and me. I think my mind needs a bigger change. It is hard, but I think that is the only way to actually have a big change.
I too have a perspective on this issue. Being exposed accidently is obviously different to intentionally seeking it out but there are different levels. For example if we go to a place or meet people who we know use P or where triggering TV shows are being watched, that can be us subconsciously seeking it out. And then in situations where we are accidentally exposed that our resolve is challenged. Do we look away from the trigger as soon as we see it, or do we look a longer than we know is healthy for us at that moment? So yeah, it's complicated. 57/365 57/
Ok, guys, it's been a rough couple of weeks, but I'm back on track. I'm intent on posting every day this time, all the way till I get to the 365 days.
Day 90! This is my second 90 days of PMO free. I am so proud of myself. The feeling is way way better than the fleeting pleasure of PMO. Keep going.