Day 3. Some urges and negative thoughts. Helped and restrained by reading these updates and making a daily update
my brave Fellowship, i relapse. this week i´m on vacances and i slack my reboot memos on the last days (which include reading my triggers prevention protocol). last afternoon my wife left the house and i was home alone all afternoon with free acess to all the gadgets. i was totally caught off guard. i knew i was in danger but i couldn´t act properly. i start fishing for horror movies with hot scenes, and one thing lead to another. once again, no hardcore porn involved, just softcore and one time only, no binge. so the damage will be minimum. i don´t regret this, it´s just another brick in the wall to show me to pay attention to my reboot strategy first thing in the morning. what sucks is to reset the counter and go back to orc in terms of the reboot, in my global counter today marks 278 days, with 14 days of pmo. that means a 95% rate of sobriety, not including the many previous months i was clean before starting a global counter i recommend everyone to have a global counter to make note of the improvements and how much we´re working on this. plus, it helps motivation running when the consecutive counter is resetted. let´s carry on my brothers, one day at a time sorry for not updating anyone today, i´m a bit tired and not in the mood actually. but keep going valiant brothers and sisters, i will check everyone once i feel better. Have a great day, love you all
Great update, a global counter is a great idea, so that motivation is not crushed when resetting. I'm going to have one as of my latest start sunday evening. Great idea. And good job logging straight away and not binging. As you wrote, effects will be minimal.
Day 2. Yesterday was reeally hard, I had lots of anxiety and masturbating was a very common reaction to those feelings
281 days – Gollum has deceived me!!! Unwary, I enter the lair of the porn queen Shelob. With stealth and treachery she attacks, but I have the light of Eärendil. The fate of the journey is fought at the doorstep of Mordor. This is getting real.
I am in - day 0 I am struggling with PMO since more than 3 years. I started watching porn with 12 and since 3 years I try to quit porn for good. I normally relaps after 1-3 days. It’s so frustrating. I hope I can reach my goals with the help of this awesome community!!