Hello everyone. I am super pumped to start on my rebooting journey and meet all of yall. I am a 19 y/o male currently in Uni. I first watched porn in elementary school because a friend of mine showed it to me. I didn't start masturbating until middle school. Throughout high school I watched porn very often and I believe it has killed my sex drive. During quarantine, there were a few times where I was able to go a week without it. I noticed how I felt better. However I always ended up going back to porn. I had sex with a girl, and I felt nothing. I remember when I was young how seeing a hot girl would make me feel something. I read up on it, and I believe porn and masturbation have de-sensitized me to real people. My goals are to reboot and hopefully reverse this so I can increase my energy levels and motivation, as well as my sex drive. I am going to start by doing hard mode for 90 days, STARTING NOW. I suffer from depression and anxiety, and I have lots of shame surrounding my sexual life. I feel like I am behind my friends who had girlfriends in high school and experienced love. I am upset with myself for not realizing what porn was doing to me and stopping sooner. I understand that I am still young and everything happens when you are ready for it. I am hoping that this shame will go away as I master myself and my consciousness.
Welcome and much success to you you are right, you are still young, better start earlier than later In case you can afford it or are from a place where it is covered by insurance, I recommend going to therapy to battle depression and anxiety. It helped me a lot
I think to have a good, meaningful sexual relationship with someone else there are several things required. Relationships that begin with sex don't last. I don't have a timeline for how long it takes, but I think sex is better if both people have gotten to know each other, care for each other and want to please each other. Sex can be a bond between people, but it is not enough on its own, similar interests helps.
Deep wisdom, I am starting to think this way also. I am hoping that restraining from porn will help me be myself, which is what I believe I struggle with. I feel like I need to put on a mask. I am hoping that I will be able to find myself and what I enjoy in life. And I am hoping that I will find a women who I can truly connect with on that level.