I also feel same after relapsing. But this is normal. When I learn something from each relapse, it gives me new hope to get up and try. Each defeat is the opportunity to become better. Don't beat yourself bro. Learn from your experience and rise above!!
Do you have any tips about panic control? I get scared about thinking about sexual thoughts,need help!
Day 0. I relapsed. I felt it coming. I already had a hard time the last couple of days, but today, i finally broke. It doesn't feel like i've lost everything, because this was my longest streak in years, and i definitely made some huge steps towards better time management and being more active and stuff. I just don't have to relapse the next couple of days, because i feel i am the weakest in this period. Also, i try to check in every day again, cause that slipped to and kept me reminded of my goals and route. Stay faithful, stay confident and stay busy.
Day 19 win. Had sudden wet dream in the morning, but still considering myself as a win day because not a intentional one. I guess, my wet dream is because of a women in my friends circle wore revealing clothes and was around me, also evening movie started by a friend has lustful scenes that attracted my eyes even though I tried to control my eyes with headphones on my head. Anybody have suggestions what to do in these kind situations?
I think when all of my friends around me doesn’t have any lustful feelings in these situations, why should I have them!! I think I gotta be like everybody around me, Strong, undistracted internally.
Day 20, 21 partial wins. Didn’t MO but mild P on Netflix. Past two days was little hard with my mind kicking off to do MO, but some how as I am watching Netflix in the hall alone day/mid night, I controlled myself. I guess this is part of chain reaction that I watched lustful movie three days back. Now, I logged out off Netflix and prime (others credentials), I am feeling stable and settled mind. Thank God.
Passed 6 weeks of freedom. Although I'm not a religious man I have been called to seek out the spiritual significance of 40 days, having just passed 40 days free of PMO. "In the New Testament, Jesus was tempted for 40 days and 40 nights (Matthew 4:2). There were 40 days between Jesus’ resurrection and ascension (Acts 1:3)." For me the significance of 40 days lies in achieving another positive milestone, a mile marker to be proud of. I'm reminded, also, of the words of Thomas Hora, “All problems are psychological, but all solutions are spiritual.” I didn't write this message trying to convert anyone to anything. Just maybe trying to make you think, make you ask yourself how you can be more spiritually fulfilled. I can't think of anything more spiritually devoid than porn. Today I choose fulfillment over pleasure.
I’m back. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know what to say. I’m ashamed. I just want to die. So pathetic.
What are you doing differently since starting the nofap journey? What new habits have you taken on to replace pmo? If you keep doing the same things you'll keep getting the same results.