So this morning I woke up and for the first time in recent memory I didn't compulsively masturbate. While I have been without porn and orgasm for a couple of days this is a pretty big step. When I wake up I find that I lack enough mental capacity typically to stop myself quickly. Now the next challenge will be going to sleep without compulsively masturbating because I don't fall asleep easily and I try to maintain a sleep schedule to wake up every morning. I am going to reset my day counter to be about the time I fell asleep last night. I am going for the hard mode now.
Thanks for your encouragement. I continue to reflect on the failure and what the underlying causes were. Today has been good, though. I just sat down and did things I needed to do. I'm trying to get right back into the positive routine that I used to have.
Day 11 complete Today was a really hard day guys But it passed! Feeling really demotivated today at work, I saw a lot of beautiful girls walking on the street my brain was like a hunter I knew if I look to their body I would fell when I arrive at home so I looked away.. it worked Let's keep moving, the ring is on our hands! Take care this weekend
Checking in with 5 days complete. Today also, I struggle most greatly with sleep. My sleep was unrestful, waking up multiple times with unwanted arousal. Daytime is a piece of cake in comparison. I believe my subconscious is taking a harder hit than my conscious self. I'll push through, I will better myself to serve middle earth.
DAY 31! Dear friends... I apologize for the wording. I am not English speaking. I have to leave the forum for a while, I got to 31 days without PMO and now I feel like I have to start working in more areas of my life, I thank all of you from the heart for everything you have done for me, they are wonderful, thank you to life, to God, to whatever, to the servers that store this site, to everyone, Thank you !. I feel that with your help, the stories and experiences of each one of you gave me the strength to reach this streak since September 2014 I could not reach it, you gave me life, you gave me light, hope and courage. They taught me how to crawl, now I must learn to take the first steps on my feet, but for this I should no longer count days, now I must make the days tell the story of the change in my life, I have to fix my shit hahaha, I will week of September 20 to tell my success story, and I will return to this forum to greet you, or if I fall I will return before that date because if I fall 2000 times 2001 I will get up. Brave friends, strong friends, believe in yourself first, and then believe in what you want to believe in, be it God, Jesus, life, the planets, werewolf, big foot, Buddha, Muhammad, whatever! all of them will tell you the same ("God" helps those who help themselves "), we have been long enough in the shadows of pain, regret, bitterness. it is time to have the testicles and the smile from ear to ear and fight! because life needs you alive! needs you here and now! To the administrator of this challenge! Thanks dude! If you want you can wait for me when I come back to update my counter / range or if you prefer you can get me out of the challenge, this they do is great and helps people a lot, Thanks! My friends, good luck, good vibes and balls help you always! strong to the end !! -----------------------------------------
137 days completed Day138 check in... Now my frequency of nightfalls/wet dreams has dropped from 15 days to 23 and still counting. The reason being, as I said earlier, I completely starved my brain from anything sexual.
Hello, I'm back after a decent length hiatus from this forum (I think about two weeks?). I almost relapsed today, I'll admit I stared for a few seconds at something I shouldn't have and ever since I've been tearing myself apart because of it - rationalizing relapse and the usual toxic bullshit. I haven't been sober the whole time I've been away, but I think I'm 3/4 days clean right now. I still need to update my counter.
my favourite politician alongside with Churchill . Good to have you here Honest Abe Let´s carry that ring to it´s demise. Onwards!!!