5/90 I'm starting to have bad cravings and flashbacks, but I'm not giving up. Just have to focus on something else.
Friends/brothers, I am sorry to report that I relapsed twice in the last 24 hours. I am so ashamed for letting you and myself down. There are a few things I will take away from this.... 1. I did make it 32 days, which is a good start for me. 2. I felt so good (overall, comparitively) on those 32 days that I know for sure that this is the life I want to live- free of addiction to porn and masturbation. A life where I am in charge of myself. 3. This can be done. If I can do 32 days then I can do 64, 128, 256, 512, etc... Don't give in, keep up the fight, I am getting back up with you!
Another messy morning. Some things I watched yesterday were still in my mind and I searched for some related things. And then it turned out I accidentally made a fricking bookmark yesterday and I clicked on it. I even managed to forget the 7 year anniversary with my girlfriend yesterday. I feel like I'm really stuck deep in the mud. I have to get out of here and do it fast.
Hey guys, I relapsed last night, after 37 days. Edging and then nudes and MO. It was my longest streak ever. The relapse is due to my bad mood the last days. My problems were that i have thoughts about my future studies but i have low self confidence and that i was thinking constantly how much i have failed approaching girls (almost 24 and virgin). These negative thoughts destroyed me, i am very stressed, have fatigue and brain fog. I felt very tired. They drove me to relapse. I am the type of the guy that used to relax his anxiety through pmo. That's very bad. That isn't the solution to our problems or a helpful way to face our thoughts. I am very disappointed that i have to reset my counter. But i care more about my self improvement. I think that i made progress and i want to change more my mindset. So i begin immediately my new streak and i am going to be very concentrated at the first days so i wont go to my old daily habits. I appreciate my existing progress and believe that this relapse doesn't tottaly annihilate it. But i can do better and i have to work on my mindset. I will start journaling for sure because some days am lost on my thoughts. To conclude I understood my false and now i have only to focus on my new start. Keep strong guys, there are awesome efforts in this team!!
Day 65 No M Day 170 No P Was really busy day so missed the motivation video post today. Will be back with one tomorrow! Have a great rest of the day guys!!!
Day 9. Why for god's sake is that woman there in the embedded YouTube video on the top of the NoFap homepage. Do it away!!!
7/90 One week down! This week I focused on basic rhythms that would help keep my body in a healthy place. I choose some simple habits and stuck with them in a very disciplined way: I woke up at 6:00am every day, even on weekends. I've been doing this for a few weeks now. It helps keep your circadian rhythm stable, which directly affects mood and energy levels all day long (also it's much easier to fall asleep at night). I took a long walk outside first thing (at least 30 minutes, but usually closer to an hour). This is a fantastic way to wake up. You get plenty of exercise, fresh air, and blood flow. Add some nice stretches afterward and you're good to go. I took a cold shower every day. I won't get into all the amazing benefits of cold showers. If you haven't learned about it or tried it yourself, go look it up right now and consider taking up the practice. It's extremely good! I regulated my coffee intake. I decided that quitting cold turkey would be too extreme and could end up triggering a relapse. So, I disciplined myself to drink only one cup a day which I made at home and carefully measured the ingredients to make sure I was getting a consistent dose of caffeine. I can't stress enough how helpful this was to me!! Being careful with ANY casual drugs (like caffeine, alcohol, weed, etc.) is SO important. It's been much easier for me to remain emotionally stable, which in turn keeps me far more prepared to deal with urges. I've been alcohol free for over 2 months now. I ate meals at regular times and made sure to eat ENOUGH. Without getting TOO picky, I actually did some calorie counting to make sure I was eating enough of my macronutrients. Protein seems especially important for maintaining stable energy levels, so I focused on that the most. Anyway, like I said before, taking care of yourself physically certainly isn't the ONLY important thing, but it REALLY helps with keeping things under control. Remember HALT: Hungry, Angry, Lonely, and Tired. Taking care of these basic needs with healthy habits and outlets really sets you up for success. Have a great day everyone!!
The freaked part is for real. The problem is we rear hens and they mate like on an hourly basis. So am kinda worried that if this is to become a trigger than things are about to be really complicated. Thanks for response @terry
