Hello everyone I am a 24 year old male and have been using porn for 13 years. ~10 days ago I tried to start my NoFap journey. I never wrote a post because every time I did I had so much to say. I'm going to keep this post short and sweet and find the proper thread to really open up. I really want to find the strength and motivation to overcome my addiction, which is why I am finally posting now. Long story short, I have watched porn for over half my life and kept a secret from everyone. Throughout my 13 years I found new ways to turn myself on and feel a really excellent high, while also keeping a secret and hiding my tracks. I went from watching porn on websites to manipulating girls to sending me nude pictures to stalking girls I met on social media. My actions have lead me to masturbating to photos and videos of my friends, family, and colleagues and they have had a significant affect on the relationships and interactions I have with them. My last relationship ended after I tried to open up to my S/O about this because I wanted help and after a year I believed she could help me gain the strength. Instead I was left with a scar that gave me guilt every time I masturbated which only made my issue worse. At the start of 2018 I made it my new years resolution to go the entire year without masturbating. I made it 40 days, during this time I found a youtube about NoFap and that helped me last that long. At the end I started to watch porn again and convinced myself I had control. Once I got my first job out of college in April I began trying to stop masturbating again and after a series of making 3 - 5 days every so often, I finally decided I can't do it by myself. I trust the NoFap community will be able to provide me the support I need to find my own strength and help me reach my goal. I want to go 90 days without masturbating and watching porn for my reboot!
Hey fluffyAmy You haven't any replies to your post yet so I'm saying hi and I'm encouraged by your honesty and determination to do something positive!
Hi fluffyamy I hadn't noticed you had posted on here the same day as me but I am the same age as you and judging by what you have said I probably started looking at porn at around the same time too (though I've never been in a relationship myself I have certainly browsed social media profiles of people I know so I can definitely relate to that but hopefully we are both here to do something positive)
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