Day 1 today, going to stay strong. Yesterday's relapse built up over a few days, was feeling really horny and felt that I just needed to look at a naked woman on a screen...it makes me annoyed that I have such a drive to look at pixels on a screen!! It's quite sad when you think about it! Anyway, made it almost 25 days on last streak so going to beat it this time
Reporting a relapse resulting from Flatlining curiosity. One thing for sure, I am not taking this casually anymore. I have analyzed all triggers and I have concluded seeking deeper spiritual connection is my only way out. Day 3 of 90 completed.
Day 2/90 No PM Day 435 at attempting this challenge Day 153 weight training (M, W, F) Lifestyle: reduced caffeine, desserts and alcohol
Day 7 Normally I would post some things I'm thankful for, but today I'm in a bit of a melancholy mood. I had the chance to sleep in today and found that I slept much later than I would have expected. I slept far beyond the point where I felt I had enough sleep and was rested. I realized that I currently don't have much I'm excited to get out of bed for (not the first time I've noticed this). This troubles me deeply and makes me feel very sad. I remember times as a child when I felt so much excitement to get out of bed in the morning; I knew what the day held and wanted to experience everything life had. I had activities and people in my life that I was desperately excited for. I guess this is a good time to slow down and evaluate what is actually important to us. What has value? What are we living for? What is your vision for your life? What do you want to accomplish before you die? What do you want the last decade of your life to look like? How do you want others to remember you? DO you want others to remember you? What's your reason for getting out of bed in the morning?