you reached 2 weeks clean so a lot was learned and improved . now you need to improve your method, and for start you need to find when and why you start falling. that´s crucial. Let´s go!!!
One more day of walking my brothers and sisters. It seems now every month as a nofap nickname, so now we´re in "Abstain April". Let´s cherish that
I tried that challenge that some people have tried, where you try to watch p without masturbating and ejaculating. It worked! I relapsed a little without touching my dick. Well, I touched my dick only for a tiny bit. In the end, I wasn't trying to relapse. I'm glad I participated in that challenge, but I decided to start my counter over. I can't accept the fact that even though I relapsed (even without intending to), I continue this streak. Back to being an Orc.
Brothers (and recently sis), I failed. I relapsed. I had some pain like blue balls and in my lower abdonem. As I relapsed (even without joy) it was a really good release, the pain was gone. But today was my mistake I relapsed again with an unneccessary reason. Back to an Orc, it was cool to be for a while an Uruk-Hai...
The sooner I say it the sooner it happens... Today I drank some alcohol (which I'm trying to quit) and that led to PMO. I feel like the alcohol and PMO strikes have to go together so this time it was more of a conscious and "voluntary" act. Later, when I have more time, I'm going to write the reasons why I should quit alcohol as I did with PMO. I don't feel like this has been a major step back. I am proud of the progress I've made this last days and I am confident that I will finaly leave this hell behind. I wish you all the best of luck in your reboots. Let's go brothers and sisters!
My rasons to quit alcohol - It makes me act like someone else. - In case of drinking too much it makes me loose control of my actions and do things which will embarras me. - It makes me unhealthy. - It is a major abstacle to my sport progress. - It acts like a shield in difficult or uncomfortable social situatutions. I have to learn to face them and be confident without the use of drugs.