Day 14. TWO WEEKS I’m happy I managed to achieve such a streak and I need to thank all of you for being so helpful and kind. Stay safe and away from dirty stuff. My best wishes!
Day 17/90 No PM Day 426 at attempting this challenge Day 148 weight training (M, W, F) Lifestyle: reduced caffeine, desserts and alcohol
Day 1 again. with a little insight into my current feelings and situation. First I want to say that I am really grateful for this community and how responsive, kind and supportive the people are here. I love you guys. hugs. I at times give advice to people here and it gives me joy to help. However at times I think it is really important we share our feelings, especially when we are going through rough times. I am going to be honest, I am feeling pretty down and anxious about my insomnia, and some situations in my home. ^^ However I have backup solutions (like sleeping pills), in case my traditional methods won't work ( which they should usually do). I spend way too much time looking at a screen, even when I do exercise every now and then, it doesn't change much. I just happen to get anxious much more than I used to about my neighbors loud TV, my brother staying awake until 4-5am making subtle noises every now and then and lately he started smoking. The only time he goes see his friends or invite them home is at times around 3 am. Like wtf. Why this late? He is also very spoiled and not very well raised. my parent is unfortunately not competent enough to raise him coherently. I can't deal with any of this either, and quite frankly, I don't have to and shouldn't. I have to take care of myself and achieve my goals and dreams. One thing I know for sure. My NEW self that lies on the other side of this whole struggle, would never match with this picture of where I am, in any way. (usually home and work are the things that repeat the most on a daily basis, it kind of contributes in our programming). And now in the lockdown it is mainly home. I live with my family (and of course I love them for who they are, however, I cannot continue to exist and persist in this environment, because they are like a continous reocurrence of my past and they are therefore toxic simply because of that. Especially when I am trying to change myself radically.) it is a paradigm of misery. Why don't I go live alone? Well, the things is the apartment where I live is bought and I feel that sense of financial security. With all the insecurities and anxiety issues that I have, living alone and having to pay the bills and a bunch of other stuff, might be too much for me. (but I am not sure, now I am thinking about it again.) Because I have no friends, no support to reach out to in case something happens. I would be lonely and feel lonely. But I could still try to make friends until then, like I did once. There is plenty of hope. I know it. Sorry for the ramble. I'll keep updating with less words Much love and blessings to you. Hugs.
Day 4 of the new habit. I am loving it. Its amazing how I have so much time and I am able to feel my emotions. I can feel the anxiety whenever it creeps inside and i realize it has no power over me. But I am stopping all negative language from now on. all my life i have talked negative to myself. negative words.Donot want be held back by my reality but change it, create it. I love myself.This made so much sense to me. Not that it was something new, but it was powerful. Hugs ❣️ and love
Day2 We all can do it COME ON GUYS WE ALL ARE NOT IN THIS WORLD TO JUST WASTE OUR HUMAN LABOUR WE ARE HERE TO WORK . AWAKE ,ARISE AND DONT STOP TILL YOUR ACHIEVEMENT OF GOAL. Best of luck , lets rock it
Today I have woken up with intense sexual urges. My mind keeps on wondering to thoughts of nude girls. I can feel the urge to watch P. But am powering through, I have to finish this day clean. Will post again in the evening to update you on how the day would have progressed. But today's urges are crazy. Everytime I loss focus or feel bored they pop up. So I have to keep myself distracted and very mindful of them.
Day 26/90 check in. I am now calm at the surface level however inside in my mind there is a lot lot of negative thoughts, the p imagery appears everyday but I talk to myself and explain to myself about nofap (no pmo) the bad effects of pmo'ing and the benefits of Nofap and that I can be able to release these imagies from my mind and develop a cleaner mind through educating myself about reboot and the Nofap lifestyle.
Day 7 No M, Day 89 No P Tomorrow is the date of my official 90 day goal!!! Its going to be partially fulfilled - no P for over 3 months! (I stopped watching P some time before I started with the challenge here) I's a big celebration and I will continue here until I reach my no PM goal after! And you know what? After that I will live a normal sexually active life and never go back to that shit ! Keep going guys!
Day 9 of this streak. No more P, no more peeking. Instead I'm increasing confidence and self-love. I built this reality, now I will build a better one. I joined this forum 143 days ago. Of those 143 days, I was 131 days without PM.
