RELAPSED . I was surfing the net and 1 little video triggered me , my mind immediately got remember the whole routine , the actions and the reward . The urge was so strong that after 24 days of strict no pmo , today i watched porn for 2 hours . went to 3 sites and watched all the porn that was uploaded there in the category of milf and mom . Then fapped , energy drained , went to sleep and just now woke up . I think no matter how many days i ll remain clean , my brain needs more time i think may be a year free from porn will do something good in my case since i have addicted to this habit for so long , while typing this post my brain still wants me to again go to those websites right now and binge watch more because now i dont have streak and it will be much easier for my brain to convince me . I just hope i wont give in this time , i have decided that from tomorrow i ll not stay in my home , i am joining a public library and i will go there for studies and gonna spend more than 3/4 time of my day there . A single cue can lead you to relapse guys so dont put your guard down , not even for a mini second . Good luck .
But isn't the point of nofap to be able to resist those triggers instead of avoiding them.I failed the same way you did many times but avoiding triggers want solve the problem it just delays it a little bit.First 3 months of NoFap will be hell that's unavoidable but you should read about the withdrawal symptoms and be prepared for everyone of them.Also don't binge anymore you haven't lost all the progress you achieved in those 24 days
Facing them is good and by going to library that is going out of my comfort zone to avoid all the entertainment that my brains gets from youtube, porn and other things i am gonna face the reign of my brain . I am detaching him from all the entertainment sources , i hope that works . When i stay in my home , its my comfort zone , unlimited net @40mbps speed , vpn , privacy in this big room , headphones , laptop . There is everything here which a addict will need in order to remain in this pot hole for ever but not anymore , i have done with all of these things . I have lost the spark in my life , my life has become dull due to this habit , dopamine receptors have gone weak , and due to porn i think i am also facing premature ejaculation . I am living in a hell that for a spectator looks like heaven. I think the only option to regain the control of my life is to move out for once and for all out of this comfort zone . My mind is still giving me 'n' no. of reasons to not to go to a lib tomorrow , its still trying to convince me to stay here and we will try again to do study from here there is no need to go out . I have started understanding my brain little bit and these are just excuses and tricks and this time for a whole month i am gonna attend library irrespective of weather i am to study there or not but that alone time i ll not spend in my comfort zone anymore . Btw sorry i relapsed again , watched porn for 2 more hours . 24 days of progress gone within seconds . Long time ago i read a post on my quora in which that great writer given the porn the worst addiction title , as he was saying that porn > smoking > alcohol . and that time i laughed , and i was like how can a porn can even be counted as a addiction , but reality hits you harder then you expect . I am gonna build myself again , rise with me and lets quit this habit for once and for all . Good luck
Hahaha lmao. I don’t laugh at just anything.. but that made my day! Thanks for that Glad to be here, thank you Sir!
Day 72 I have had so much going on in my life that I forgot to check in! I suppose that's a good thing though NoFap was the start of my changing, slowly I've been able to change the things in my life that needed changing thank you for all the support you've shown me through my ups and downs! I can't express my gratitude enough for all of you!
This self control thing is like a muscle, the more you use it, the stronger it becomes. I agree with the others, read up on possible triggers, and not just what you see, hear or read.. diet triggers are deadly... sugar is one, like a drug to your brain. Finding and avoiding Triggers are half the battle in my humble opinion
Agree, but as well (and someone else said it above) learning how to deal WITH the triggers too. I think a lot of my success, now 50 days in, is due to understanding the root cause and the reason the triggers kept me going back, and then building a better version of how I wanted to react to them. I see and feel triggers constantly, but I began with awareness and controlling the reaction to them. Now, some of them pass me by and I don't even realise until afterwards. Sometimes I still need to be aware and make sure I take the right next actions. It would be easy to slip back in to it all still, but the longer I go the less I want and need to.