I feel you Spartan. Today I have had a horrible mood. A darkness. Getting worse through the day. Finally just now I did my training. I pushed myself and it went very well. But even now I am still feeling the darkness. The gloom. And a few months ago I would be turning to pmo too. But not anymore. Instead I lift. I meditate. I pray. I journal. And I have faith that it will pass. I am fortunate to have you here Spartan. The urge army will need to send many more soldiers because I am stronger than ever. A-Hoo!
Check In - Day 1(11) Hello Spartans I felt a dark mood come over me today. It is familiar. I know it well. I don’t think it will ever go away entirely. The winter months make it worse. It just means I have to make sure I’m doing the right things. Stopping pmo doesn’t mean that every moment of life is rainbows. Like others have said here, it means we are in a better position to deal with life when it isn’t roses. I think it’s important to be honest about the process especially for new Spartans. The process is working on good days and bad days. As long as you are committed to the path. So if you are having a down day just remember that it will pass and do your best to put yourself in a better frame of mind. I like exercising myself but it could be music or cooking or painting. Just keep putting energy into things that are not pmo. Thank you all for being here.
No apology needed to me. Seems to me like you're channeling your energy toward your many passions. I wish you continued success on your path
Day 30 *enemy camp utterly obliterated, Black smoke fills the air as a oddly dress Spartan walks slowly from the ashes of a burned down shak.. the enemy litters the floor*
I appreciate your message. I am reminded that even the great ones feel dark moods. I hope it doesn't sound weird but I take a bit of comfort from that.
Congratulations on your achieving rank! *double fistbump* *scattered enemy reports: beware of oddly dressed Spartan rising through the ranks*
Thank you for your candor. I admire your sharing that. Today is a new day: the great blessing of renewal; the choice to move forward. No matter what my day counter reads, I am starting over today, too. Have a great day my friend
This weekend I started dating, and I can attest that I was 100% honest, didn't think about sex, and I consumed very little alcohol. For the most part I enjoyed the experience of connecting and having fun and getting to know a few women on a deeper level. I felt joyful, relaxed, and confident. I learned a lot about my new self and the women I met. The cliche rings true: The journey is what matters. Not the destination. I do wonder, though, if given the opportunity, if I would have sex before finishing the Spartan Challenge. I feel like I have to remain vigilant. So already I'm thinking ahead instead of focusing on the present and taking things one day at a time. I have zero sexual urges but I am assuming things and dreaming of scenarios that may never even happen. So I realize that I still tend to get a bit obsessive and impulsive about women. So, yesterday, I "hid" my online dating profile. There are 2 lovely women I'm interested in knowing better, and since both of them seem to be interested in knowing me better, I've decided I'm going to limit my time and attention, and focus only on them. I'm not interested in juggling more women. I want to settle down with one woman, and casual sex is not part of the agenda.
never though about this, but u might be right bro too much thinking about sleep deprivation make me stress out and yet no solution came along, thanks bro,, i think i will just enjoy the moment tho day 5