Daily Checking In " Human endeavor must always remain short of perfection, besides no one will ever weed out the tendencies innate in his particular nature, the point is to change their force into life power" By- Ouspensky. I have stopped counting days from now on , i believe that instead of focusing on this counter i should enjoy this healing journey and be sober again
I am in this Spartan challenge. Lucky to find such group of people who are even avoiding erotic fantasies. I am in at Day 6 Hardmode on. No Porn No Masturbation and No erotic thoughts and no erotic story reading. I hope to get support from you. My counter is wrong it is showing 500 days does anybody know how to fix this issue. i am currently on day 6 going to complete one week without no porn and no masturbation little bit of erotic fantasies from the past few days. Your suggestions are welcomed how to overcome the fantasies in the morning and what to do if their is a huge urge to watch porn or masturbate.
A little story telling from my part, fall in fellow spartans. So this is the message to all who failed, this is my story every night. Alright. Another day is almost over and I see the moon and in the moon light i see a big army marching towards for me. The URGE army to be exact and I am only one standing. They won't stay away, they will get back when I am down. Making me feel like I need them for an escape. The same battlefield, my bed, where this fight usually ends, ie. them winning. I m bounded by the limitations or chains holding me that are meant to make me stay down. They are holding me so i don't fight anymore. My true self is locked in a cage and it hasn't seen the light of freedom for a very long time. These shackles are designed to make the urges befriend me. Their general (PMO) acts like he is the only guy who can help me get away from all my insecurities. Making me comfortable with a Large Screen full of women showing their meat to keep me interested. Which leads to the lie that all of us are fighting with. It is almost time for the army to march to the battlefield again. The general is going to make me shake his hand. The screen is going to pop up in no time. I am going to give in. That's usual. But today. I want to spit on the general's face and knock his teeth out. See when you cage a beast, or in our case a Spartan, the spartan gets angry. My life flashing of what I was supposed to be and my past self seeing me in shackles grinning and feeling sorrow at the same time saying "I thought you wanted to achieve greatness. I thought you wanted to be free? If this is how i turned out then i would have rather died" Which is enough to motivate me enough. The shackles need to go, the army I will fight to the death, the screen I will smash it with my will power. No longer I plan on keeping myself a slave. The beast wants out. And it's growling for a fight. It's one vs an army, but this time, the army will wish I still had my shackles on. I am going to fight, I am going to win. And I won't fap till the day I die. HOO-AH
Hello everyone, all the spartans that need there rank updated tag me and let me know. Thanks @the alpha project
How can we avoid erotic thoughts? I mean they can pop-up in our head right? I guess the only thing we can do about it is to recognize it as a bad thought and try to think about something else.
Relapsed after 12 days. Not that I gave up or something, I just felt that I need to do so and I made this decision. So now I'm rolling in at day 0 again, and now I don't need to worry about my nocturnal emissions (didn't had them for 12 days which is strange for me. I blame my inactivity during that 12 days for it, I was sitting home all day and not even doing pt for all that time).
@Kratos_GOW in 1 hour I will check for day 61 I am now a spartan commander but I surely won't give up this time