DAY-7 , Checking In "Regret of neglected opportunity is the worst hell that a living soul can inhabit" - By Rafael Sabatini
Hello Spartans, Had a close call tonight. Thankfully this community of soldiers kept me on the path. I was alone in my home office thinking about a woman I met at a conference in another city recently and will be seeing again in a few weeks at a different conference in a different city. I started to have this fantasy in my mind about seducing her and then I had this moment where I thought uh-oh, here comes the chemicals. So I got up and went to another room to do some chores. Close call. Another thing happened today. I was in a cafe at one of the universities and the place was dead. The girl behind the counter was not a campus hottie and she looked miserable but for some reason I decided to try and open her up anyways. I playfully chatted with her for two or three minutes and got her smiling. I asked her for her name and she put her hand out and blushed. It wasn’t a business handshake, rather, the kind where she gently lays her hand in mine, offering it to me, while she blushed. It was a fun interaction and I left feeling like she was charmed by me. These small events are good signs that I’m moving away from the pmo mindset and cycle. I’m connecting to women as human beings not just pixelated body parts. There’s more to them than their body parts. They have smiles. They have ideas. They have desires. And they want to have exchanges of emotions, thoughts, and energy. Not to be stared at like meat. I see nothing wrong with seduction. I think it’s unfortunate so many people think it means manipulating people into doing something they don’t want to do. Seduction is an art and a dance that happens between two people. It’s a team sport. It’s a dance between beings that dwell inside of human bodies. It’s not shameful. What’s shameful is when people see only body parts. Only value body parts. Only relate with body parts. That’s what porn and endless hours of staring at photos of girls on social media did to me. And I’m so happy to be breaking away from it. I’m so excited to meet more women. Not female body parts. Women. The beings that dwell inside the female body parts. I’m not saying that flesh doesn’t matter. Believe me it does! So this coming week my mission will be to meet more women and get to know them as beings, not just view them as body parts. And I wish I never got so messed up for so long and missed out on getting to know so many of gods beautiful creations.
Check in day 75! Ive has a bad headache today I will share more about my progress when Ive got a clear head. Only 15 days to go! @Kratos_GOW
I relapse again after one clean day. I feel I cannot stop the horrible habit. After every one clean day ending, a relapse always follows. Every morning I feel too terrible to get up and face the reality, so I fail to get out of bed and relapse repeatedly.
Go to any length to stay away from porn, I locked my laptop in the attic and my phone stays downstairs every single day, you can do it mate you never have to end up in this place again stay strong and focus on the goal
You are doing brilliant mate stay focused on your goal and keep moving forward! You're an inspiration