Got some triggering news from a friend this morning. No porn, no images, nothing sensational, just facts about something in real life. Put me in a dangerous spot at that time (was at home), but held badness at bay. Then tonight, in an even more vulnerable place..(for the same reason)... the closest I've come to losing it on this streak. Doing fine at the moment. It's funny how when you're right there in the thick of it, none of the logic matters. Going down to zero days, the negative consequences, it's like it doesn't exist. It's like a magic spell that completely takes over. And the only way out is to somehow snap yourself out of it.
I am unclear whether I have been admitted to this group or not. Anyone available to answer that? In the mean time, I will say that at 18 days, I am feeling good about the progress. I seem to be having some spontaneous, unexpected encounters with women. That's been pleasant. Feeling less shame as the kinky images assume a less important place in my consciousness. And...although it is still subtle, I'm pretty sure that I am less anxious...which I notice when I meditate feeling less distracted by mental racing. That's a lot of gains for less than 3 weeks PMO.
The group is currently full. I can add you to our waiting list but it will be several months before we have an opening for you. Reply to this comment to be added to the waiting list.
2 squad is now the 4 squad. Nice work! Let's keep marching. Who are the masters of our domain? We are! Funny side note: I remember watching the Seinfeld episode about going 30 days without M back in the 90s and thinking how impossible that would be. Now I have done it several times. All it takes is practice, brothers.
Hey @NICEDUDE congrats on 5 days! Good to see you fighting your way back up. Couldn't happen to a nicer dude.
Ha. I didn't know there was a seinfeld episode about that. I used to think it would be impossible too. I thought more than 4ish days and I'd be unable to handle it.
Elaine and Kramer failed right away! I think George and jerry didn’t make it either. It was painted as an impossible feat! I agree - even last year I remember taking about nofap November as if it was equivalent to crossing the Nairobi desert with a can of Coca-Cola. Look at you now! Look at me now? How is this happening?! I really do not understand!
Checking in on Friday. One week down. This week was up and down. Tuesday morning I felt at peace as I went to work. Wednesday afternoon I felt like I was hit by a mental hurricane. Nonetheless, I'm am pushing forward one day at a time. Everyone keep up the fight!
No, you can post on this thread if you feel the need, but the rules of this site say an accountability group can only have 20 members. I have added you to the waiting list.
Oh boy, I may have sounded obnoxious! I am just schlepping along, surrounded by temptations every day, and I really don’t know what’s carrying me above them.