Sexual Energy and Social Interaction Okay Spartans, I’ve been thinking more about my social interactions with women during this challenge. And I am starting to see that I’m way more attuned to sexual energy. I think it’s because I’ve stopped all porn and all looking at photos and videos of women. Instead of focusing on body parts as sexual objects when I’m in public, I’m attentive to things like facial expressions, eye contact, smiles, and other indicators of interest. I’m in a play mode, where just like a dance or a game of tennis, there is a back and forth. And the energy builds with the exchanges, and I’m able to play with it. And I think this is one reason why my social interactions are changing. I’m interested in your thoughts if you have these experiences. It’s fascinating. I’m going to add some kind of social interaction practice to my program. I’ll report back what I come up with!
checking in day 39 I call them all easy day but if I reflect on them just few months ago I would have called them superbusy days oh man I am so tired I'll relieve some stress but I'm not doing it anymore and I feel always that I've some energy yet to do something else
Check in day 29. Has anyone else experienced explicit dreams? I’ve been having several. The morning salute seems to be lasting longer (30 minutes sometimes)...is that normal?
Day 3 - check in.. feeling good.. So i'm meeting some of my buddies and I was instantly tempted to visit a club while with them.. and then i read this nice writeup: https://www.elitedaily.com/life/dangerous-strip-clubs/1454815 "I was no longer looking for temporary relief. I had spiraled to allowing the strip club to fully replace my reality. I stopped caring about what I wanted in my real life. I preferred to take the easy road. I drove home that night in tears. I saw myself at my lowest and most animalistic form. I didn't just consciously degrade a woman; to a loose extent, I degraded myself." "Strip clubs were never going to satisfy the things I truly wanted out of life. They were only going to bury me further into the depths of my own pity."
Hello Spartans, Today I practiced opening conversation with random people and it went really well. I could feel my presence change in connection with this practice. And I felt like it changed how people in the cafe perceived me. It was like I had this warm glow around me and people were drawn to me. It’s very hard to explain but I will say it is a very good feeling. It’s an increased energy but very calm and chill. It feels like power instead of force. It feels like a flow state. If you know what I’m talking about you understand why it’s hard to describe and explain. I definitely will say that it is linked to my discipline of no pmo. I think also that taking a break from social media and news sites has helped. I feel a new kind of presence. It is really amazing. If you have not experienced yet I encourage you to explore it!
Also, I see some Spartans on their way to trainee status. I am happy to see this. We are a small number right now and it will be good for our numbers to increase. I look forward to the new additions joining us this week. Stay strong and level up Spartans!