Ok so day 32, starting to feel slightly more human and have started browsing the web without getting urges to hit pornhub. Anyway, I was on Reddit the other day browsing AMA and there was a thread on there from a porn star called Jesse Rhodes (never heard of her). So someone asked the question, 'What got you into porn?' Her response was 'God gave my a vagina and I thought i'd use it'... Well God gave you a brain as well sweetheart, how about using that instead! I feel another rant coming on but honestly im sick to death of these fucked in the head bimbos going on about how porn is liberating and empowering and an industry where the women call the shots and get paid more than the men. Er? Hello have you seen the interview Mia Khalifa did? Only 12 scenes filmed, 2nd highest ranked performer on Pornhub, brought in millions for the publishers and advertisers yet she only made £12k! Most of these morons wind up broke, destitute or dead from suicide or worse. The ones that do get out and turn their lives around either end up turning to god or end up decrying the industry as they've realised its exploitive and destructive! Ok rant over, im going to sit in a quite corner and think of a happy place! (normal service will be resumed as soon as my blood pressure comes back down!)
Started Challenges Jan 25, 2019 Relapsed 16/266 Days Longest streaks 67 (2015) and 51 (2019) Current Challenge 18/90 (ends New Years Eve) Day 82 weight training (3X/wk) Day 23 reduced alcohol, caffeine and sweets - the wife wanted sex last night but I was not aroused so we skipped it - trying to avoid the trap of conjuring up porn images in my head to get aroused but didn't succeed - feeling a little triggered by my imagination but not going to give in - your brother in this struggle
Day 14 complete, checking in. 2 weeks ago I relapsed and was so dang miserable; what a change. Stay strong, brothers!
21/30 already 3 weeks without any pmo, still struggling with need to watch erotic content,and masturbating,feeling a bit anxious, but its still far than better to watch porn and masturbate then feel a slave of your own sexuallity, even if you are not feeling good dont give up to a stuggle keep going, if you feel broken or weak remember that the wound is the place where the lights enter you
day 9/90 completed successfully. brothers You have to grow from the inside out. None can teach you, none can make you spiritual. There is no other teacher but your own soul. so it is you to decide how you want to tame your soul. all the best brothers one day at a time your brother in this struggle
Back to Day 0. Have not struggled this bad in quite some time. Chaser effect after my last relapse has been intense. It's a lesson to remember for sure. Anyway, not giving up, never giving up. Starting over again.