Porn is degenerate and every time I watch it I feel like a degenerate. I'm done, I won't be controlled by this anymore. I have read the rules and would like to join this group
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Check in fast —counter on 4— and going to bed. During the successful streak I’d listen to a short playlist about addiction. None of them songs I loved, but it caused me to think about addiction. I can’t stand the songs any more, but not having the frequent reminders I have a harmful addiction is hurting my recovery. I’m telling myself a kind of mantra a few times a day. It’s going to grow. “P and M Addiction causes harmful pathways in the brain. It can never be satisfied. I am an addict. I don’t do that anymore. It hurts me and my family.” It’s not that way 100% each time only cause I haven’t memorized it yet. I still need better bedtime discipline. That’s my #1 goal the rest of the week.
The ranking system is something that gives positive feedback, its nice to see myself moving up. Gives a sense of accomplishment.
Thank you. I didn't know it'was that easy. I think the counter machine is a bit broken, I was sure I had two days minumum. Lol.
Things are going pretty well here. The process certainly isn't linear and there have been some tough moments lately but giving in wasn't really an option. I'm really starting to think that if you can just keep it away from the senses (sight, sound, touch) then the urges and fantasies lose their strength and tend to go away after a few minutes most of the time. It does seem to be getting a little easier now for me. Of course all it takes is one weak moment so I can't get complacent and think I've got this beat. It really hasn't been that long. I think we can all agree that after a relapse, it becomes hard to get back on track. Maybe we go a few days or a week but then relapse again. Pretty soon you've relapsed 10 times in 3 or 4 weeks, which isn't really a relapse anymore - it's just going back to old habits. This drug really seems to be an all or nothing sort of thing. Lastly, there can be many things that help but one thing that is helping me is to realize that the only thing that truly matters is that you don't give in. In a way it is simple like that. Long term consistency is what is difficult. Lets keep fighting and see some streaks.
Well done!! I've been at that point before, and I hope to come back and move on. Thank you for inspiring others.
Hi, I have read the rules and would like to join this group. Day 1 for me and knowing myself as I do accountability is key! Thanks for your support and I look forward to hearing back from you.
Glad to hear you're doing well! Completely agree with your points! I have had issues lately with “sight” - I notice (read, “lust after”) every beautiful woman around me. This is a prelude to P for me and it just has to go. It’s a brutal process and at times I feel I am being unkind to myself as I am trying to cut off something that “satisfied” me for years. For fans of Dostoyevsky, I think this was a point Ivan Karamazov was making. He was looking for something, for higher meaning, etc, but said that if he couldn’t find it, he would just immerse himself in lust and sexual immorality (just like his dad) because that could satisfy, numb, and sustain him until he rots.