Started Challenge on Jan 25, 2019 Day 181/186 no PM (relapsed day 51, 70, 102, 150, 162) Day 84/90 meeting my goals Day 50 of weight training - no weight training so far this week since I am away for a medical appointment - I had my first drink in over 6 months since my abstenance experiment for my prostate is done - though not drinking helped a lot, I will do the same as caffeine now and just have a drink now and then when the occasion rises....like my son's 19th birthday in 2 weeks - feel good about those 2 decisions now and PMO being more in my rear view mirror now than it ever has been - have a great day, fellas
Right, time to stop fucking about! I have managed the 3 day and 7 day challenges a few times now, but fail to go on any longer. It was only 9 days ago that I managed 13 days, which was my longest since February! Since then I have fallen into really bad ways and have been binging harder than I have for months! Today I have been giving myself a bit of a talking to. Time to take this shit seriously! Do I want my life back or not?! 90 days is the magical number that we are all aspiring to. I realise that it may take longer to reset, but at least by then I will have a good idea of where I am at. The others are just false goals. I am now committing to the long haul. I managed to give up alcohol (mostly) for 6 months pretty easily, so why can't I do this? I will also be getting back on the no booze train, to give myself the best chance all around, and generally feel much better about life. So, without further ado, I begin. Day 1 of 90 (and a new life!).
don´t feed those thoughts. if you´re distracted it´s not your fault, but when you´re aware of those thoughts, you can choose not to feed them, not to engage in them and they will dissolve on it´s own. this is very important, if you continue to engage in that kind of thinking the urges will grow. plus subconsciously you´re giving permission to lust, you´re saying OK to lust. that´s the wrong mindset bro. check your attitude, ASAP.
i hope all brothers are going well. let´s keep going my brothers, only perseverance will get us there. today marks 1/3 of my journey . i´m feeling so much difference from the "old days". -more energy: i can work and hobby the entire day without getting dead tired quickly. - more confidence: i can talk to people very straight foward, i feel a deep empathy towards others. - more aware: i´m more alert than before, things are looking more alive, music is better, books are better, movies are better, everything seems more alive. -more peace: i feel a peace within me, it´s hard to get me out of balance now. -more atractive to girls: girls are stocking me with their eyes, even girls that couln´t stand me before . on the other day a girl almost bump into me in the street because she was staring so much -better facial expression: my face looks a lot better, more colorful than before. much better than the scared pale face and dry lips of the addiction days. now i understand something a friend of mine told me 20 years ago in highschool (about the time when i became a regular fapper) "man, you look so pale". -more smarter: i can solve things with much more efficieny, i almost sense things before they happen. -almost no social anxiety: in fact i´m feeling a strange link towards womans, a kind of intimicy now, wow. -very good sleep Onwards to the next 30 days . let´s do this brothers, towards freedom!!!
Been a while since inactivity here, the inactivity period made me complacent about it, it made me believe it's quite normal and I fucked up again, started to fap two times a week. Did some self realisation yesterday, felt the urge to come back and I'm back. Wish me good luck.