So to start for those who do not know me, i have been a member for quite a while now, i just got out of bootcamp and i am basically rebooted now thanks to it, i will share the things i experienced and the things i still am learning and discovering, the answers might not be what you want to hear either..., anyways let the ramble begin. This is basically everything that happened to me. 1. my confidence is extremely high, i can talk to a girl now with no problems, i dont have to constantly think what will i say next or am i coming off as weird, it just flows. 2. i am a lot more out spoken and assertive, used to i let people walk over me but not if someone pisses me off i will say something and stand my ground. 3. i got my morning wood back about a month in, it took forever but it is rock hard now. 4. i had eye floaters out of no where, thousands of them, i still have them a month later but not nearly as much as before, i wonder why i got them?. 5. my sleep is amazing now, i fall asleep no problem and my quality of rest is awesome. 6. i get tons of erections, just thinking about a girl can give me one, i am always horny and looking to fuck, like before i would look at a girl and say oh i am beneath her, now i am like damn i want that ass, and i am so confident about it to. 7. i have a lot better self control now and self respect 8. i no longer have a sissy fetish, during bootcamp instead of wanting to be pounded, it turned into me wanting to have sex with a girl instead, me doing the dominating. 8. i no longer have gay thoughts or urges. 9. i had some urinary pain and urine leakage for about a week, not sure if i had an infection or if it is progress lol. 10. i get so many aesthetic chills or frisson as they call it. 11. i had a lot of flatlines during my time at bootcamp, lots of ups and downs, lots of depression and anxiety, but i seem to be past that now, i did have one a couple days ago but it only lasted a day. Now let me share some harsh reality, your desire for porn will never go away, my mom sent me my laptop and i got it today, i edged last night because knowing my laptop was coming filled me with old feelings and it made me lose control, i managed to stop myself a couple minutes in but its no excuse for slipping up, luckily it does not seem to have affected me at all. And that experience really made me realize that as long as you have the internet you never will be free, i said this before i left and i am still saying it this far into my reboot. When i was at bootcamp i was isolated from the internet, i had no desire for porn and masturbation, and i was able to reboot because of it, but the second i get my internet back all those old feelings and urges come right back to me, i feel that same hopelessness as i did before, that temptation right infront of me, so my answer to the cure for porn addiction is simply internet isolation. Sorry for how poorly written this whole thing was, i had plans for this big awesome post but this is all i could come up with, if you have questions please message me and i will answer them.
Encouraging story there buddy. I'm on day 10 after relapsing. My longest streak was two months. More than ever, I am determined more than ever to quit PM forever. I have noticed an improvement in my morning woods and better sleep. Still having a problem maintaining an erection during actual sex, but the sensitivity now is much higher. Reality check: very severe mood swings, lack of motivation, bad memory, struggling at what to say during conversations (and the associated weirdness) and brain fog. I am confident it will heal in the fullness of time. I also realized that participating in this forum, helps a great deal to remain focused and have a reason to keep going.
yah i did suffer from it i believe, i could never get hard without porn, now i can just think of a girl and get an erection, i have not had sex at all however so i am not sure how operational things are.
i am glad you are recovering!, if you take anything from my post i would say staying away from the internet is the most important thing you can do from my experience.
I see, thank you for answering, brother. I hope you keep getting better and if possible, keep sharing your progress. Congratulations!
Good job bro. I have read many of your posts in the past and I'm glad you finally reached the 90 days. I unfortunately haven't succeeded yet, but I've definitely made progress. P.S. Relapsed yesterday
you got to get away from the internet bro, best decision i ever made and now i am back on it again with no problems, its only temporary.
When I quit two years ago I used to read the Bible everyday, I think that's what I gotta start doing again.
What is this boot camp you mentioned? Did you try any rewiring? I’m wondering how you managed to get erections so easily. After how long did you start getting these erections? Are you taking any supplements? I dream of getting erections just by thought Sorry for all the questions, just curious what to expect and how to ensure I’m on the right track.
i went to military bootcamp, no supplements, and it took like a month before i saw erections coming back, maybe a little sooner.
Great job brother. And what do you mean by you dont have a gay thoughts, so you had some gay and transgendered person fetish before?
definitely do that, God helped bring me closer to him and away from the darkness, the bible is a great place to find him and it helps keep you away from evil.