Relapsed, but hey we learn from mistakes, and grow stronger from failure. 0/90 today, moving forward!
Back to day 0. I had been feeling tempted for a few days, told myself a few g-rated pictures wouldn't hurt, although I knew where it would lead. Then I started believing my thinking that it would be okay to look at porn and reset my counter afterwards, it was no big deal. I wound up doing a 1-1/2 day binge. I wasted a lot of time that could have been spent improving my life (getting caught up on projects, cleaning up my environment, getting enough sleep). Eventually I got back to the point that I was clear that porn is an unfulfilling waste of time that leaves me feeling less stable and isn't even very pleasurable... hours spend wading through a lot of mostly boring material searching for the occasional mild feeling of cheap pleasure that leaves you worse off afterwards. I'm going back to the 30 days challenge to restart.
Day 4/90 I notice most of my problems stem from either going to sleep or waking up, I don't think I've ever done anything during my waking hours during my reboot Finding the motivation to get out of bed without MO is what I'm looking for and possibly getting better restful sleep rather then me tossing and turning thinking about touching my self. It can be challenging at times because it's so sensitive down there, it's like an itch I want to scratch but I know it will kill my energy Have a good day everyone and stay clean
Date started: Jan 25, 2019 Day 162/165 no PM (relapsed day 51, 70, 102, 150, 151) Day 63/90 meeting my goals Day 165 no alcohol or caffeine Day 42 of weight training - nothing significant to report other than my groin aches for some reason for the past few days (maybe my bph meds) and am feeling stronger resolve to stay strong - fight this addiction boys!
Exactly bro for me also same I do not really believe porn is bad in the heart but in real its a real disaster.
Challenge start: 25.05.2019 Longest streak:26 days New start of no PMO: day 1 Cold shower:32 days Running: day 2 Daily prays : day 1
do what you feel is best bro, we´re with you. i hope you can finish the 30 days soon so that you come back to this thread. your presence is very appreciated . much love bro
here´s a tip: set the alarm for the morning, when the alarm rings, get out of bed. no need for drastic moves, just get up. when you get up a whole dimension of awareness enters your brain. then open the windows, let the light enter the house, that way your brain will lighten up much faster. on the other hand if you allow to stay in bed that extra minutes not only there´s a change for a relapse (in your case) but also there´s a good chance of ruining the whole day by becoming lethargic, because if the alarm rings and you stay in bed, you´re giving contraditory messages to the brain, it will work poorly and you will feel sleepy the whole day.