Nope. The past does not equal the future. Every day is a new opportunity for change. Repeat this to yourself over and over, until you start believing it. (Because it's true.)
6/365 1.6% I love math! And I love all of you! There are so many inspiring people on here. Thank you so much for walking this path with me...it's so encouraging to not be alone.
Day 6/365 - Glad you got the math Timothy James. Being on the same day it makes my life a little easier since you got it covered.
Don't think that way. I had many relapses as you are having right now. Please take a trip or go out with friends, or meet your parents. Interact with people. That really helps to break our own prisons that we built for ourselves. First 2 weeks will be hard, but after that, it will be a smooth ride, trust me. It's only about breaking that initial inertia.
My life is going certainly great right now. I am working hard, being happy. I am not confined by any addictions. My wellbeing is great. I am not using phone/ pc extensively. I am learning to meditate. I have started journaling. I am planning the most important goals for the next 6 months. I am planning to study hard this semester, doing lean bulk, learning 2-3 skills like learning python or stock trading or something like that. I am also planning to read books every day. I want to improve the overall quality of my life and I am heading towards that.
It's great that I don't have any urges. It's true that you can't remove bad habits, you can only replace them. Please replace your bad habits with new ones. Identify what are the triggers and then change the action that you take after identifying those triggers. It's Day 55 and I am killing it.
Good stuff. It's important that we find positive actions/goals to substitute in for the time/energy we used to spend on PMO. The more we can experience true personal growth and inner fulfillment, the less we are tempted by transient, self-destructive distractions. I have a set of my own, and I call them my personal projects. Some are fairly simple, say getting better at crosswords or learning a new recipe. Some are more ambitious, say learning about physics, or reading Dostoevsky. The outcome of how far I get with any of these isn't of prime importance. What matters most is the process itself, i.e. getting in the habit of reaching towards positive goals. And once in awhile I actually learn something.