Thanks. Yes, I think of 90 days as a milestone also. Another step on the path towards completely eradicating addictive sexual behavior.
I often feel anxious, unsettled and fearful. If I act on those feelings and try to figure out why they are there or try to change life somehow to make them go away, they only persist. If I pause to explore those feelings and get more fully in touch with them, they dissipate quite quickly and I can get on with my life.
Congratulations on clocking more than a hundred days! That is really encouraging to me. I am still struggling in the single digits arena ... but seeing your progress and knowing some of your history on this thread gives me motivation. Keep up the good work!
V. I'm having incredible difficulties. It just doesn't seem to abandon my mind, the idea of masturbating, I mean. Casual accidents led me to come very close to edging three times today. It's just there, ready to strike you: you're in the bathroom, you start to masturbate; you're at your computer, you start reading hot forums about sex; you are at school, you start imagining to have sex with the girl you like. I am determined, but at the same time, every little thing brings me out of the track. What can I do?! Help me, help, help!
I mean, can you grant me this right? Because I never masturbated, nor had orgasms, not watched Porn, but I am always there, in a risky position... I think this feeling will slowly go away but until then, I mean, I'm not perfect, really. I have limits. Oh, God save me.
It happened, just as you thought it would. I'm living through an existencial crysis. I do not know for sure what I want anymore. The idea of quitting PMO all of a sudden was stupid, I've got to admit this. The reality is that I do not know where will I end. I wanted to quit porn, sure, but what about masturbation? Does it sound OK to you, the idea of quitting it forever? Is eternity a goal, does it have any effect on me? No. And so I go on, failure after failure, because I do not know where to go. Porn is quitted, I know it. Last time I watched it, it was a month ago and it looked gross. Thanks to the absence of porn, my orgasms are now much more powerful and this is a problem. quitting something that feels good is difficult, just like drugs. I do not think masturbation is dangerous for our body, just like running all day long. But both take you enormous amounts of energy. The choice of running or not, of fapping or not, I leave it to you. I'll go ahead, I'll keep the counter updated, but I need some time to think about my future. I hope you'll give me all your opinions, thery're always helpful.