Man oh man, I am feeling blah and tired. Just wanted to post this, at Day 1 as of around 5pm. I got this but oh this is rough. Will get through it. Time for a cold shower!
Flatlines can feel horrible. After 3 years away from porn, except 1 relapse, I just can say, once an addiction always an addiction. The power of the addiction and the consequences get less over time. And there is definitely a big gain of energy abstaining from porn and ejaculating less
I have noticed the energy for sure. I have had several mini-streaks (4-8 days). Even went as long as about 6 weeks three years back when I had a fiancee. So I do get that there's gold up in them there hills! But oh, the climb! It's all good.
I've been on top of that golden hill before . . . it was amazing . . . Never been so happy in my life . . . But I fell . . . Now I'm headed back to the top again . . .
I know what you mean about the energy but you also started feeling the confidence and happiness without it in you life as well I’m sure. I am around five months and the happiness you get is truly overwhelming and does tend to play tricks on you when you least expect it though. One relapse in theee years is great. How long during your first year did it take for all your withdrawal, PAWS to go away...
I think the first 90 days no PMO was the most difficult. After that it felt like superman)) That feeling will come again.
My flatline has started to maybe ease up a teeny bit. Days 2-3 are usually the worst. Then one hits after Day 7-8, but thery are never as brutal as that initial one after PMO. Of course my streaks are not super long. Anyone else get similar results?
Give yourself I reward. Relax and think about your positive qualities. You are doing fine. Even trying with failure is good. Soon you will manage. I am sure. Take it easy. Relax.