Almost 2 months. I can't believe I’ve got this far. I feel so proud and grateful...It was something I always saw as impossible to overcome but for God there is nothing impossible. In the last few weeks I've been thinking about it...why have I been with PMO for so long?I think I was trying to fill my life somehow to feel fulfilled even if only for a few minutes. But that is not fullness, fullness is God. When you get very close to God, you notice that you don't need anything else to be happy, He is love. That's what I've noticed in the last month and a half. It is no longer a struggle with the PMO, since I feel so happy that I don't need anything else. Sometimes I feel a little tempted but it is very weak because I feel full of Him. I just want to share what I feel with others, I think that now I am much more prepared than before to be able to love anyone. Now I finally think I could have a girlfriend and love her the way she deserves, be special to her... Before it would have been impossible. Courage in your ways. Seek fullness in Christ, come close to Him much, do not be afraid! You can do it with God's help and I'm witnessing. Thank You Father, never abandon me even if I abandon You.
I am in tears right now, because yes this is so hard! God is so good. Sometimes I get so angry and irritated because of lust, or something else in my life, but we must keep fighting. Jesus is infinite joy, and porn is just mud pies. We must choose Jess over the dirty unfulfilling lie that we think PMO will provide for us. Fight the good fight!
I also had a spiritual awakening last year, especially lately when I have shifted paradigm when talking to The Lord (i.e. the subconscious mind). A paradigm-shift and positive kind of thinking can almost take you to the stars if you want to. "For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he: Eat and drink, saith he to thee; but his heart is not with thee" Proverbs 23:7
Thanks for reading it. It's so hard, I agree...it's taken me 10 years to realize it. For me it's a miracle because now I see life with other eyes really and what's more important: I KNOW (because I've experienced it) THAT IF I STAY IN GOD I WILL BE FREE, SATISFIED AND I WON'T NEED ANYTHING ELSE. It's just incredible to have this experience really, feeling loved and full. I asked Him many times to be free of PMO and now finally He is giving it to me, we only need faith to be healed.
"But whatever gain I had, I counted as loss for the sake of Christ. Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ and be found in him." (Letter to Philippians 3:7-8). Yes, nothing is impossible for God. God is showing me more and more that things like porn, masturbation and completely rubbish comparing to the beauty of Christ my Lord. Daily reading a Bible is a key in my case. Today day 38 without PM and 30 without PMO. Much less anxiety in my life and much closer to be able to listen and apply in my life God's Word.
Same here. I am reaching 40 days today. My previous record in one full year was 20 days. Today I am doubling that. I wasn't hoping for getting so far and still going.
Dear brothers, Recently I realized (God has showed me) that porn and masturbation were not the root problems in my life. There were sort of "false pain killer". Tip of the iceberg. I was trying to reduce spiritual, emotional and relational pain with such compulsive behaviours but it of course only got worse. The root in my case was rejestion by my parents, as a result, low self esteem, hatred to myself. Thanks to God's grace (Jesus' love for me) finally started to accept myself, my story, realizing that the Creator of the Universe loves, receives and accepts me. Reading daily a Bible plays a key role in this and discovering the truth. God is teaching me this in the last weeks and months (Romans 15:7): "Accept one another, then, just as Christ accepted you, in order to bring praise to God." (NIV) "Therefore receive one another, just as Christ also received us, to the glory of God." (NKJV). Today I am grateful to Christ for receiving me.
By the way, 4DCreator, thanks for what you wrote in the other place in this forum (I cannot find it now, but remember this) that some of the reasons why you want to stay free from it is getting rid of (d)evil's energy and low vibrations. It reminds me about the words from the Bible: "The reason the Son of God appeared was to destroy the works of the devil." (1 John 3:8b).
Psalms 23:4 "גַּם כִּי אֵלֵךְ בְּגֵיא צַלְמָוֶת לֹא אִירָא רָע כִּי אַתָּה עִמָּדִי שִׁבְטְךָ וּמִשְׁעַנְתֶּךָ הֵמָּה יְנַחֲמֻנִי." Keep fighting the good fight.
Beautiful_Life thanks for your story and the message in it ... It is encouraging, it has taken me a lot of time to finally make a decision to quit PMO and start reboot, but stories like yours makes me want to do it, and i'm just so impatient, and i have to be careful. Thanks a bunch for your story
Thanks for reading it!! I wish you the best in your journey, and remember it’s much more possible than what we think. We only need another point of view of things and appreciating things that are great but we get accustomed to...But if we can change this view, the life changes
Thank you brother for the encouraging words. For Christ, nothing is impossible! For many years I have had problems with PMO but now it has end! I need your help in praying for me because without God's help I do not think it will be possible to be free. Of course I will pray for you too brothers. God bless you!