It's 1:54 AM and I relapsed got interested in some type which led me to another for 2 hours... I'm a soldier lets get back on it willpower has been going down, I know why though, I have not been doing many productive things so my brain wanted a reward for today since there was none. Learn from this guys if you are having trouble. Also when I could go on for much longer like 2018 fall I used to scream randomly to get myself motivated and act ACT like I had energy for the task I needed to do.
very good bro. also meditation is great to calm the mind and workouts are great to calm the body. keep them up. don´t get careless now, just stay on the path that lead you to 47 days, that will be your path to victory. go bro, we´re with you!!!
that´s not true bro. when you abstain more than 30 days on your last streak your brain started to got used to a life without PMO. that means that a new life is on the rise, the change is already in motion my friend. you feel sad and tired now because of the relapse not because of the streak. PMO drains the life out of you, that´s why this shit must go. let´s go my friend, no promises, no pressures, just one day at a time. you can do it.
you lost track of the goal. bro, motivate yourself every day to nofap, several times per day on the first weeks, you´re own motivation. also make a plan for the tough moments, antecipate what´s gonna happen: what will i do: "when i´m alone: when i´m bored: when i have urges: when i´m hurt or sad: ...." you´re not a victim bro, no matter what the addiction says. you´re the ruler of your fate!!!
4 yesterday i had the flu and got to stay at home all day. never in any way i thought on PMO. however on the last hours of the day i started getting really bored and begin to hesitate, that feeling of being paralysed. so i gather my honest strenghs and told my wife what was going on and ask her to put the laptop and mobile away from me. so she did. i got to sleep still feeling hesitant and paralysed, but it worked. today i´m focus again. amazing how this shit can grip you in a matter of minutes. let´s go brothers!!! one day at a time.
Day 1/90 failed. My face face getting worst. Acne growing more and more again. Skin lost charm again completely.