I know exactly how you feel, my friend. (Hands having a mind of their own). Boredom also fucks everything up for me. Just gotta fill all the gaps in my day with positive activities. We can do this!!
Day 1/14. I feel that following a strict routine really helps. When I was following a routine of run and exercise, I was able to hold on better. I had lesser time for sitting idle or being alone or waking up alone. Hence following that again. I went for a 5k run today and tomorrow it will be core strengthening and some weights.In fact entire week(including weekend) is planned out. Will keep you guys posted about the updates. Again , I would like to thank you guys and yes..we have to help each other and be honest here. No hiding anymore.
I don't have any urges but..I'm feeling very low. I know that it could lead to M and i thought that coming to thread will help me. I'm trying to be positive.
@nilesh bodhale i feel the same way but i this moments is when you have to be stronger. You have to rationalize the situation, because the P and M won't help you, maybe that seems like a good decision now but thats gonna change after you do it or tomorrow when you be more quite.
I have a testimony guys. My major moments of relapse is when my friends go out and I'm all alone. There's nothing to hold me back from watching. Freedom is here. Well I decide two days back to follow my friend for the second round of his audition. Which I don't normally do. I asked myself why I choose to go for what doesn't interest me. I just told myself it beats staying at home. Today came and I decided to escort him. When we got there, he decided to go in while I wait outside. Before I sat a staff told me I could join them and I explained to him I was just escorting my bro, he still insisted I go in. The next guy I met at the Room where they were about to have a brief also asked me to join. I was scared of embarrassment when they find out I dent apply. Well I still went in and joined in the briefing. To cut the long story short, I was automatically included myself in the project. I was so happy because I learnt a lot from the brief and I got to join something I've never been a part of and I am pumped to see how I can apply myself. On my way home, a thought hit me. If I was still watching porn often, I would have chosen to stay home so I can binge on porn. I'm so glad I chose community over privacy. Then it also hit me. What other oppurtunities have I missed because of lust and porn?