XXI. Still no signs of a NE. I surpassed my previous record. The emptiness of long distances is waiting for me now. I have reached the edge of the salt desert, the edge of the unknown. I'll walk through it with strong determination, for I know that one day I'll get to the other side of it and find happiness. But until then, watching ahead, I can only see the great salt flat, and a horrifing swamp behind me. Who knows, I may find a green valley after the desert... You will not see me for some time. Wish me luck, we're writing history here.
Yes, that is a good approach. Personally, I still don't manage to deal with relapses so well, despite having put a lot of effort into it... I am sure you remember how bad my relapse cycle was a few months ago, and getting out of another one would still be very difficult for me... My gf supports me a lot to overcome PM, and even though its a long distance relationship atm and I cant see her every week, it is that helpful.. I try to be very persistent in my efforts to improve myself. I think persistence is probably one of the most important things for anybodys sucess... Thanks for posting so much good advise here, I am glad there are so many people with a good mindset here.
Day 2. It felt almost impossible to resist the sexual thoughts by myself. The only way was that I understood to kill the old habits and ask God to let His new creation take a place in me.
Day 154 "A man who has not passed through the inferno of his passions has never overcome them." – Carl Jung
Keep going, you are building critical strength! It gets easier after awhile, and then easier still until you fall out of the habit and hardly ever feel tempted to pmo anymore. Remember that sexual urges come and go, but they are ALWAYS temporary. They come on strong sometimes, but just focus on something else and they will fade before you know it.
I am glad that you are back on track and that you have a gf that supports you. We need a good support system. I remember when you had a good streak going of 140 something days if I am correct and a relapse seemed to take you of balance. To me, that was just part of the learning process and you are still here fighting and now doing really well. These struggles teach us valuable lessons if we pay attention and I think you have done that. You are an encouragement to me, to never give up!
Day 15- I would not say that I am feeling good or feeling bad. I just seem to be a little pensive and indifferent this morning.