Warning. Very sick story.

As long as u are alive there is hope.

 

People in worse condition have healed. Keep fighting...

 

You pray about it and try not to engage in the behavior again and you'll feel better as time goes on..the more you abstain from such disgusting behaviors the better you feel.
So next time you feel like touching yourself atleast dont do it next to your dog, go in another room...stuff like that. baby steps.

your past is your past. leave it in the past and try not to think about it.

 

You haven't given any examples of the "sick shit" you've done. So, it is not easy to say if what you do is unusual or not.

I don't see the relevance to be honest. What difference does a dog, cat, parrot, reptile, budgie etc being in the room make?

 

Signifying that he felt bad he did it infront of his dog who was lying right next to him?

 

I am sorry to say this but if you don't accept it you will not be able to get better. You recognize that what you did was bad, use that to never do it again and make things right.

 

Honestly, unless theres more to the story it doesn't sound that bad.
Ive seen stories on here by guys who would M in their cars and would try to get caught. That is what turned them on.
People who would PMO at work, or in a public place.

As an addict you thought it was normal. Now that you are rebooting you feel disgusted. I would say that is normal. Don't beat yourself up, instead remember how you feel now looking back and be determined to never go back to that twisted state of mind.

 

Read Russell Brands book Recovery..it really helped me let go.

 

U weren't in a normal state so it wasnt really ur fault, when we don't control our desires we do really silly things. Use past to progress and learn from ur mistakes, not to regress and cry on what u did. We were all like u, it began slowly and grew little by little, thats how the devil does and the addiction works. If at the beginning u were confronted to what u watched at the end, u wd be disgusted. One little tip for ur future, don't tell to anyone u know irl what u did, it was God's will to keep it hidden, repent to Him and be grateful, and feeling guilty is a sign that ur heart is still alive!

 

I really like your dog man

 

Was he a porn addict?

 

Good thing you woke up. Now you just gotta find the way out.

 

Yes, and sex and drugs and food..he was an all inclusive addiction.

What made the book great was he let you into his head. How fucked he was..how he got clean..his struggles with his demons..and why you have to accept your past to move forward.He also walks you through the 12 steps..something you can do on your own if you have to..they really work..and reading all types of psych books( and being a health prof myself) I totally see, agree and understand that it’s one of the best approaches. Not the only one..but a good one.

I read many books on addiction..his really was one of the best.

 

I may want to order this goofball's book now. I know he was married to Katy Perry for a while.

 

That story doesn't look sick, there are really worst stories, don't worry.