48/60 (and 90). Yesterday had a major major pull to relapse. Hadn't had that in a couple of weeks. It was seriously intense desire but I just held firm. Thought about how I would feel "after" PMO and just couldn't accept that. It was a good 45 minute rush but I came through. Was fine every since but man did it come on strong.
oh man,,,,we gotta take care of those fucking urges. I'm glad I didn't relapse 2 weeks ago, I came close. Its because we survived those that we are able to stand tall today... do you do stuff like visualization or affirmation?
Day 55 Having social anxiety and overthinking. Next week...i work from home whole week...i am so worried about that!
60/60!!!! This is something I never even wanted to do much less thought possible. Feeling better, thinking clearer, thankful.
Thanks! That number is just going to keep climbing. After 5 years of recovery work I'm finally tasting what sobriety is. AND I LIKE IT!!! I've given 40 years of my life to this addiction and it's not getting another day!
7/60. Had my first wet dream of this reboot journey last night. Mixed feelings about it. Nice to have a physical release and relief but my energy is lower this morning. All part of the process I suppose and given that my dreams are so vivid these days I'm guessing it will happen again.
Day 14/60. Some urges today. Accept the urges for what they are. They are proof you are alive and human. They are a manifestation of your natural sexual energies. Don't give in to your urges, but don't suppress them either, because then they will definitely own you in the end. Use your energies to motivate yourself to be the best you can be, in all areas of your life.