Again start from 0/90......something happened bad After 5 days...... 1st relapsed was 13 days, but 2nd relapsed only 5 days. ... but still want to take challenge again. .....
Still at 60 days, but decided to delete Instagram and Snapchat for the time being as they were pulling me into a slippery slope. Staying strong and not falling for it, staying accountable and going to post more on the forums here. Just today...
Day 27/90 Body is tamed, but somehow my mind wanted to relapse, anyway, earned another battle, increased my magnetism noticeably
I need help guys! Today I had an unwanted erection , after which there was a slight fantasy for a few seconds and I felt that a tiny drop coming out I tried to check and I found out that there was nothing and my penis was not really wet or sticky ( I think I was IMAGINING a precum) .........so i thought that maybe I should not reset my counter....but after a while I had a feeling similar to what i may feel after PMO (minus the laziness and weakness) and I think that it could definitely mean that Iam imagining PMO....I am also facing strong urges to masturbate hard , relapse , and reset my counter...Do you think I should do it?
Alright alright alright, day 12/90. Still a long way to go but the first steps have really been taken. Good luck everybody rebooting for 90 days. Remember; it's not about what we can NOT do anymore, it's about what we are FREE to do.
Day 13 out of 90. I'm on the path to success. I can feel the surge of victory. Time to beat my old record and achieve the 90 day record. 77 days left
Day 47/90 . I guess the actual struggle have begun . I have been struggling with my urges since morning searching for erotic videos(not porns but u can call it p-sub)... And i was ignoring urges.. . Later i watched a movie in which i saw a sex scene and a couple of boobs scene. . I know its bad ... But does it affects in its a movie scene ? . Suggestions are welcome.
I realized that i rushed in to quickly into this after my last relapse 2 weeks ago and I am starting to recover quickly. I have been hanging with my friends and I am grateful that my long friendship with you guys has helped me get back on track. Two things to say about today. 1. I rushed back from my relapse and did not think about what i should have done or what caused what i did. I tend to not think with my mind sometimes and it gets the better of me at the end. So, I have decided to start from day 0 today as I have written a list of things that has made me relapse as well as advice from you guys (god bless). I know this is stupid, but I want to get to know what my triggers are and rather replace them with their counterparts until i am fully healed from the wound that is keeping me back 2. My friend suggested to watch some Pewdiepie and I watched his recent video today, which made me really mad as it showed porn games from this one website. Honestly, I only watched 2 minutes without understanding the whole thing until i realized that the sponsored ad was from a porn game website. This serious took a toll on me and what did i do, i check out the website, play one game and that was a trigger. I did want to start from day 0 because of this, but I wanted to start from day 0 because I didn't understand fully what was keeping me back. I understand each and every single thing that makes me relapse and am now having a competition with a friend of mine on who can recover efficiently and more. As an early new years resolution, I am going to beat the struggles that keep me down and achieve 90+ days of no PMO. See you on the other side guys 0/90 once again.
