Not sure NoFap would help me...

Sounds to me like you need to start living, not stop living. Have you tried? I mean really tried? That's what you need to ask yourself and then start from there.

 

Hey buddy, i'm not sure noFAP would help u BUT i'm sure FAPing will make your situation worse trust me and thousands people in this forum.
I get so depressed when i see so many people around the world fighting with social anxiety and depression, it got epidemic and obviously something is wrong with our life styles or foods we eat or polluted air we breath!, anyway i can't say any magical word to u but since u are here read others successive stories and try to be positive. Maybe someday u become a succesful story!
I wish u Luck

 

In your case it seems like you're depressed. You must stop fapping or pmoing completely.Start eating healthy foods or small portion of refular ones. You gotta give your brain something else like positive habits. If that don't help you have other issues.

 

You need to stop wasting semen. Porn will only make you want to waste it every time and when it doesn’t it will warp your sexuality horrifically.

You need community. Maybe digital and anonymous isn’t enough so while I don’t mean to say quit this I do mean to encourage you to connect with people in person in all kinds of positive communities.

Connection will make you healthy but it has to be with wholesome people somehow.

 

Fapping kills me man. I am running from this like a cold monster wants me dead.

Not PMO’ing for long periods of time will change your life but it requires real changes to get there in mind and lifestyle.

Best wishes.

 

I was almost in the exact same situation 2-3 years ago when I had mentally hit rock-bottom in life. Although I had a quite good job and interesting hobbies, I felt that I really had stagnated at work, in my social life and that my hobbies were just giving me some temporary relief from the pains of everyday life. Simultaneously, I was very needy, desperate, anxious, had low confidence, felt dull and had a mediocre social life. I felt like I was on the verge of a major depression and that there was no way out.
Still, at New Year's eve 2016/2017, I made a promise to start improving myself (no matter the cost) and stop complaining about my current situation. Because, the alternative to my current life then seemed much more compelling and better. Improving some of my diet, social skills, body language and stop watching porn was a decent beginning during those first 10-11 months of that following year (that made me at least move forward in life for the first time in ages). Although, I still had a lot of my anxiety, feelings of dullness and unfullfilment left, I started to think I had a touch of some autistic disorder (like Asperger's syndrome) and almost considered doing a medical screening for it.
When I finally stopped masturbating last winter, I got a surge of energy after 10-12 days of abstaining and I have continued on this path ever since because life on the other side is so great it can't even be compared to life before NoFap. I have in so many ways turned my entire life around in just 10-11 months that it feels like a never-ending dream at this point.

Remember, that in order to make NoFap have a very successful impact on your life, you really need to surround yourself with activities and hobbies that interest you and that can fill that void/gap which will be left when you quit PMO. My suggestion is that you begin to pursue some kind of hobby so your life won't feel empty and unfulfilling (i.e. flatlining) as soon as the effects of NoFap starts to kick in.

 

So it wasn't enough quitting just porn? You didn't notice any change in your mood just by quitting that?

 

I would say that quitting porn was a very good start as it raised my T-levels and confidence a little (plus, I didn't feel as ashamed and guilty anymore). It also redirected my thought-processes away from lust and arousal a little and more towards productive activities as I got more time over to do other things than staring at a screen.
If you are currently PMO:ing and want to have a successful NoFap-streak in the future, getting off porn is a good first step towards that. If you have difficulties getting it off overnight (which most porn-users do), I suggest stepping it down until you have it removed from your life. During that period, try to think about the benefits and imagine what life will be like without it and how much freer you will feel.
But, in order to raise yourself up to become your best version, it is necessary to quit masturbation as well. It was that extra spark that I so much needed in order to be where I am now. While I was still masturbating (without porn) , I stil had issues with anxiety, low confidence and motivation, negative thoughts, fatigue, and much more (the list goes on and on).
You have no clue of what greatness you are capable of achieving in life until you have put off masturbation for good so I strongly recommend shooting for that as well.