I'm 37 years old. I spent most of my twenties in sexual relationships, and had a couple more into my early thirties. However, at this point I haven't had sex since 2015. Since 2015, I have gone through a grave depression; I haven't worked since then and have put on over 100 pounds. I have stopped pursuing relationships and on most conscious levels I feel like I have no sex drive. That last part is ludicrous though, because my fapping rates are at an all-time high. I am obviously looking for something in porn that I'm not finding in real life. Plus, sometimes I have really sweet dreams about friendship and intimacy with a partner, and wake up feeling disappointed. I've consumed so much porn lately that it's losing its meaning to me. It's not sexy or attractive in any way. I need to step back from it, because this feels very unhealthy. Maybe it's time to admit to myself that I am lonelier than I realized, and to confront those feelings in myself. Does anyone relate to this?
I hate to hear it - I have been single most of my adult life and I battle with loneliness but I do not let these horrible states of consciousness equal or lead to PMO. You choose to let your bad emotion => PMO. You can also choose to break it and cause it to lead to a more resourceful outcome. It is a choice. Rebooting is a tool to weaken inappropriate desire. But being free from sexual sin is something you have to want. And yes, it's ruining your health and mental well-being. You have to get up out of the mire and quit living there.
How? How do you want to be free from needing to satisfy a basic human need? Its like saying dont eat when your hungry.
i believe we need something in our lives - work, a few hobbies to actually feel worthy of youself. i´m unemployed for more than a year now. Standing still in your life will only make you hate yourself more and more each day. At least thats what i´m going through at the moment. it´s time to get a job and a hobby or 2 and break out of this. you can do it.
