I will try to reply. check out this link, do any of these rationalizations happen to you? https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/53k7t9/a_list_of_all_the_bullshit_you_tell_yourself/ when you say you are making excuses, what is happening is that when you were regular porn user your brain was flooded with dopamine regularly. now that you are doing no PMO your brain lacks dopamine and is craving it. your brain will trick you into thinking it’s okay to get more dopamine. don’t give in to these thoughts. “after i watched it, i felt good.” yes, your brain was flooded with dopamine again. that’s why. in order to “reboot” we have to allow our brain to reset by going through ups and downs of withdrawal symptoms and work normally without large boosts of dopamine. Check out this link for a “time frame” for this to happen: http://husbandhelphaven.com/porn-addiction-withdrawal-walkthrough/ You say you have sexual thoughts, yes that is part of symptoms of porn use, this will never go away if you continue to use porn. They will go away in time if you abstain from porn. My suggestion is to read up on meditation and it’s benefits. This has helped me a lot. See this video: Hope this helps.
Day 18 / 90 went to sleep late last night which means I’m going to be cranky and on edge mentally today. i need to be extra careful with my thoughts and actions then get to sleep early. one day at a time. “i will not watch pornography for these next 24 hours” set the intention, follow through. maybe a cold shower to start off the day too couldn’t hurt.
Day 0: Excited to get started! It´s without a doubt going to be difficult, but I´m determined to do this for myself!
Day 12 successful Today cleaned my room, rearranged stuff and thrown the unused stuff out, decluttered living space, feeling positive and grateful to everything.