Today is the end of my 22nd day, it's been easy some days and a struggle on other days. There's so many things at work I felt the need to share my experience. I've been looking at porn since I was 6 years old, but really got into it at around 11/12. Almost my whole life I felt something missing and filled out with various things. I filled the hole with porn, food, alcohol, cigarettes, women and most recently I feel myself drawn to my phone like fb, YouTube, or anything, not even porn... Just something to fill the gap. I've worked a great deal to illiminate each one of those vices from my life, and today I live a life I never dreamed I could have.
I saw a few posts with similar shares about feeling out of place and just wanted to say there's a way out. Just take it one day at a time. That being said, quitting porn and my phone at night it proving to be very tough. If anyone with time is willing to be an AP pls let me know. I'm trying to do things differently this time, so I don't want to just post on here and read what others post. If someone out there knows of a plan of action please reach out. Thanks!
Giving up porn was easy part when you get closer to God because you realize it's a man-made thing and it needs to stop and being man-made and incorporates a lot of the devil it's not real it's something that's created for you or pleasure. The hardest thing for me was masterbation when I wanted to have sex, find a significant other find a partner find some way to not do that too. And not having an orgasm that was another huge thing but not having the other two, now I've learned all those things I have orgasms that I do it within the confines of a marriage was in the Covenant of God the way it was meant to me sex is supposed to be a beautiful thing we as people turned it ugly. Find a way to make it wholesome hearty and healthy the way it should be. It's amazing how much more time you have when you're not staring at your phone when you're not looking for porn on the computer I'm not constantly being reminded of those thoughts in your brain remember you put them there it's up to you to remove them and that does take time if it takes 90 days great and my case it took a hundred and fifty, at this point I'm still 168 days free from porn and masturbation and I will continue to help people here if you need it if you need help ask if you want advice ask take the advice and Apply it. God bless.
I believe there i this craving in men for satisfaction or hapiness.. It can never be satisfied with visible things my friend. Only the invisible can satisfy the soul. This is God.
WD last night. feels bad man.. very weird dream. I can remember it vividly and I ain't proud. I was some sort of villain fighting super heres but i defeated them I killed a guy who looked like thanos then raped his daughter...feels bad man... So for sure it did not make me wannafap during the day at all. i know I could not control this but still the guilt was there. i do not count this a a streak loss. even though it did help lower my levels i guess not that I feel like I needed that.. i dont know. I also wondered about God's providence in all ths. God bless you guys