My longest streak so far was 6 days. I've spent the past week relapsing a couple of times just about every other day. I had a streak of 2 days, but while I was in the bathroom washing my face before bed, I got urges and started edging. I managed to get to sleep without going over the edge, but I spent more time edging during the following afternoon. Predictably, I ended up losing what little streak I had about 6 hours ago. And to make me feel even worse, it just dawned upon me that I go back to school in 1 week. Everyone says Junior year is the worst, and I'm soon going to find out why firsthand.
If you really commit in Nofap, so you start decent streak, your Junior year will not be the worst. The energy we waste on PMO is tremendous, we just can't realize it. About edging, ofc it's not "cheat" for Nofap. Edging is too, relapsing.
Thanks for the response! I realized that edging counts as a relapse when I was reading on the forums earlier.
Hey man, you're clearly anxious about starting school and porn is the easiest way you know to release that anxiety. That is a dangerous loop, porn distracts your head from thinking about the things that worry you. That explains why on the moment you relapsed, and had a clear mind, you realized you had to go back to school. I think considering the days you'll go through, they can be positive or negative but its important that you deal with them directly and not through porn. This is a must for life in general but this increases in times of more stress. If you're worried, anxious, happy, excited just process those emotions directly, learn to deal with them. Using porn will just throw you back emotionally and because of that life in general will start loosing taste, excitement, good or bad you'll start loosing feelings in general and become emotionless. That sucks. School can be difficult but it is also a huge growing experience, if you face it clear headed, focused, you'll have an advantage over others. Porn will just numb you down and pull you back, away from the things that bring joy to your life. If I were you I would start cultivating my passions and hobbies, work out if you can, find good friends, spend time with people you like. That is the true way of feeling better and confident about yourself. I'm sure you'll do great man, wish you the best and let us know how you're processing each day.
That couldn't be any more right. For a while now I've been "bored" with life in general because nothing would really interest me and every passing day felt the same and blurred together, especially during the months of school. Thanks for the advice, I will definitely take it. I need to work on friends the most.
Glad I could help man, Just make a list of things you enjoy doing, or people you enjoy hanging out with and make an effort to do something of that each day. slowly you'll start reinforcing that in your brain and you'll start finding pleasure in those things again. wish you the best!
Change your mentality: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/seven-days-now-what.183685/#post-1566190