Good Evening Brothers, I have made it to day 3. Today I have been trying to observe my feelings and see their impermanence. I also try to not change them...I notice that whenever I am sad or stress out, I find something to entertain that way...and today, I made an effort to observe those feelings, without the effort of entertaining them away. Day 4 here I come...
Day 5 completed. It is been an encouraging fight against PMO this time. Had some urges, but I have learned to avoid them. Sometimes, I feel so guilty of myself, but then I realize that some things are out of control, I can't change what happened but I can certainly change what will happen next. Only 2 days remaining, wish me luck!
Sunday didn't proved well result in relapse ... Starting again with day 2 Analysis and interpretation ; 1.Stress was there which has always been a major cause, so avoid stress. 2.Isolation and not remaining busy were other triggers , so its better to keep oneself busy. 3.Triggers will always show its result may not in the initial days i.e when you use youtube after 2 or three weeks in the beginning you may cope but persistent use will definitely and surely result in relapse. so avoid it. Solution ; Keeping myself will help a lot , reminding myself again and again about my mission , avoiding triggers by involving in other worthy activities.
1/7, relapsed yesterday morning. I feel like I'm missing the driving force which I felt in previous attempts. I need to relearn why I have to quit PM but don't have the time.
Day 6 here! Iam feeling weak rightnow, but thats a good sign that i am rebooting from PMO. At Day 8 i will leave this thread and start another Challenge!
